haiz

wha..so long nv blog le...cause kinda tired...n slacking...after the gif wrapping job i got a job as shoes promoter...didnt i tell u guys..??i tot i did sai..ha..at scots de...??really didint say..??ha then i think i am carzy le...wha..today my e-link card expire..tt means we are adult fare le...NONONONO i don wan...........i wan continue as student..i wanna enjoy the 45cents trips on bus...wha....y like tt sai...i same age as the rest in JC wat...shit sia...i dunno y now i very scared n sad..i sacred my tavling fee very ex..n scared of my new working enviroment tt i am going tmr...am i the only one feeling this way...???

this few days keep hiding myself under the possesion of my televison..miss it sia...so long nv watch tv le...but then its not a way out...herd from my ex working ppl tt cannot tok much over my new working place as the supervisor very ferice...wha...how sai..then my manager told me there got two old birds who will teach me...i scared they very ferice...hai..y do ppl realise how fortunate earlyer...??last time work at taka we say there very bad...then i got scots..there i thought even worst...now going to bugis cant tok..can ask me go jump down le...

at scots really made alot of friends dere too...ha i even started a small buissnes over dere..ha..selling my handmade neckleace n earings..ha..but silly me don dare don dare to charge then higher...keep getting scolded from my parents n sis..say i waste so much time dere n don charge higher...i feel v lost n unsecured now..scared i cannot get back the money from them..cost quite alot leh...

then this feww weeks i feel i really hav changed...i start to spend alot alot sia..cant even keep tract of the money i spend..n i eat alot..going to become ball ball le...at times i feel i am sooOo numb to the seroundings le.....

yesterday went back to school for cca oreantation..wha...i miss being a student being in NP n being part of it sia..i tried to fit in but deep down i feel its not the same anymore...i am not in any part of NP anymore as i cant help or anything..no1 will remember me le ba..ha..when i heard the problem of the campcraft team i feel so sad sia..n i wish very much to help..but i cant, as i don have any position to do that..i missed the chance of goign back to be part of them..so i can only blame myself...haiz..hope my days ahead will be brighter...

i am really noe mentally tired sia...someone help...juz by lending a sholder will help alot..ha...oh yar think of my lao gong vannesa n jocelyn now..ha cause they always let a sholder..ha..hope my new place will be enjoyeble too...!!see ya..mucksz~*