YO!! today is the 1st day of sch for SP..wander hows everyone..haiz..for me??not tt good ba...i feel tt everyone is so far from me..is i drifting away or they drifting?? i know i wanna go down SAC..but i go down also dunno do wat sia...haiz..hmm...my event...very rush...but i can do nothing also...can only sit dere and wait for my designs to come...and tis waiting is making me unable to concentrace on my other work..i am very scared everything juz BOOM!!gone gone....ahh....
today i also realise acturally i am very out...dere is no place i belong lar...[acturally i know..but its more obviouse to me now...]haiz...and i know i am not working at all...i see myself not progressing...no idenity...audrey u must really do something about this..and 1st is..i think stop oning ur laptop as often....??ha...cause ur base work also cannot do u think u can do advance one?ha..and know wat?? justin they all the pics damn nice sia...wandering if i wanna edit my pics till like tt anot...[ermhem! u think if u wan u can do meh..?]ok..i must tell myself i can...ha... TOday morning when sch abit earlyer then my class time...go club wan clear pigeon hold so tt go space put my shoes design docs..then chiong to lesson...pei boon say today i dress very bad...ha pls lar..i didnt go and dress at all..cause they wan us wear the black t so wear lor..ha...hmm..tml they said wan wear the green one..should i follow??haha or odd one..wed then wear...?haha..cause wed i tot to choing to bugis buy materials also..so be more boi on wed...tml be gal gal..haha..
OH..about class..IDS change cher..wha..then lame lame lor...another introductuon time...sian sian...ha..then DET...ohoh...i nv finish my work..but now i thinking if i drew mine correct anot sia....OMG..my class one all very nice leh!!audrey must put more effort on it le!!and then..please concentrate...cant seem to fix myself down now..during DET cher asked us to pair...haiz...something i dread...as a person whom is outcasted..i am scared of tt...at least afew ppl in my class go some1 close to them whom they can trust and hold on to..me?hold on to urself dear...OH MY!!audrey! get a grip of urself...i think i am breaking apart...after all the lesson..i wanna find comfort and stuff..juz wanna get rid of all this..go club..but then i realised..i go dere for wat??!! nothing....i feel so de......haiz..worst?acturally saw alot of ICE ppl...but i don think i did tok to much of them...or een nv tok ba...audrey is isolating herself again??DONT!!....ha
AHHH..ooverall i don think my 1st day was good lar...I FEEL..STRESS...SAD..DOWN..FASTRATED...aiyah juz everything on the nevigative side??haha
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