choices and desicions...

hi ppl...my gosth i feel abit stressssing now...money matters..the needs and the wants...well all is want lar...and the wrk thingys... well to update 1st is my family is going over seas together, as in take plane tt kinda..for the 1st time every on the coming 18th feb till 21st..2nd thing is i have been working as an survayer like 2day? yups today is the 2nd day..working as one survey 1dollars..door to door survey about recycling..body aching liek madness lor...after swimming wit aiai on friday abit "swan" then wit all this walking arounds and stuff.wha.pain pain ar...after my 1st day i hit 52 surveys..then the incharge wanted to engage me and hui hui to become TL[team learders] which means we will be splitted..then will get more pay lar...20dollars basic pay? and if i nv hear wrongly he mentioned about earning more the 100 per day? attractive hor? but then i cannot do all and everything in it wat..i still got FO to do..acturally say tt we have flexable times one lor...now like wanna tie me down?? wang another one...acturally helping him in my own will..but now want my commitments..i haven finish the things tt i suppose to do for him..hees

ok i know i have been neglating about the FO things..but there is only one Audrey and she is a weakiling...gives in to alot of things...so offered help in alot of things thus getting her head into alot of commitments..i tried my best to appear but dosent make any differences wat..alot of information i REALLY dunno and nv heard be4, so u expect me to vomit out a huge sum of $ out? goodness i am suffuctating..i do think daddy will give me the $ how...and the up comming camp SHIRTS...they say got 5shirts isit? if one couse 10bucks i can die already...acturaly my family dose not know i am organising a camp..juggling of time and $ now all the preasure is on me..don come and tell me u mention to me about asking my parents be4..cause u didnt! In the meet up i remember very clearly my main questionto u is Wat do u or will u expect me to do for the camp for u..u did not gie me a clear answer and i made myself know tt i am not very hyped and 101%commited, i also asured u that thought i am not tt commited u can still count on me to being hype during the camp, well for the sake of the campers lar...i wont fail them but in a sense i think u fail urself failed us..when i inform u about my duties the face like change lar...but wat can i do..juz feel super gulity...hmm..i am starting to fee outcasted..or i casted myself out lar...everyone dose their stuff but i don have things to do..don even know y i am there..all the people i have to work wit are doing their own stuff..reading blogs..playing? oh well..wat to say?

Then audrey ar audrey...u so broke liao..u still got soo many wants tt u cannot resist...the DGDD ppl selling Tusabasan at a cheaper price and the box packiaging is super nice lor...box1 at 29.90 box 2 also same...but there is another cheaper version of box1...i check wit outside stores..they sell box 1 ans 2 each at 29.90 too..but the person tell me its part one only...erm so part 2 is? i am quite comfused lor...tml go ask peoperlly..haiz..and i still wanna get this and that...$$ not ebought...i really wanna erase my brain ar...so many things going on and on...i keep things about all this..but wats the use...think onli mah...

tml doing JAE shif..i dunno the attire for it leh..nv recieve the email..but going out later so lazy ba..wear smiformal all the way..hack..be4 tt meeing wang to show him shirts tt i have not completed much of...dots(O_O)....then after jae go see movie..wai meng pei me..and cause i treat him movie he has to treat me dinner...ha ha...hope i can juz have sometime to AUDREY and like juz rest and play? for now can only play while working...think and worry while sleeping...haiz..getting alot more white hair soon...i don need some1 to come up and say hey i help u complete everything..maybe juz ppl to consult to..if possable help me make myself think of solustions and make my own desisions?and i think i mention be4 tt motivates me?ha startting to see my own light le...ok..now i feel raf's tking to yourself at times dose works...juz tt ppl might feel u are insane...ha..well gtg take cares!! and to all new Olevels holders hope u get into the course u desire..and Go all out for the cousre u are sure u want to get in!!NO regrates!!