HELLO~~~!!

ha..hi ppl!!been quite busy this few days..ha not about work..but maybe still pondering wit the FO things and yar going out...haha..ok lets trace back to last sat! yup morning work up early cause meeting benjamin [maybe i spell wrong again??] to go sentosa see the flower thingy..i was early cause estmiate wrong time..then my teeth super pain from the rubberbands..arggh...i tried to eat beenhoon suop also abit difficult...curentlly my throat is hurnting like crazy cause of the food stuff...haiz...haa..must ENDURE!!whoots..ha then we go vivo find sky train..lol i nv took be4..but he haven eat so when eat and walk abit 1st..then continue hunting for the train..lol its juz beside the foodcourt and we walked in circles...abit silly..nvm..but saw alot of pets..!!ha very cute...thailand also saw alot..!ha... ok so we boarede the sky train..and he cannot tap his card..ha lol..we also not tt sure where to stop...then abit anyhow stop lar...luckly is correct...haa..yar and the waterfeature is very nice down dere...as for the flowers? hmm okok lor...but i saw a very beautiful and intresting one..i called it the fireworks flower, cause it really looks like it...see


the FIREWORKS flower...hees


BIG BIG sea turttles!!(0_0)


Smiles...both eating loli..how to smile u tell me.......

yar then we wander around sentosa..not on a spending motive..wha abit sadded..cant do much dere..saw and got to know wat is car lift..ha but didnt go..then when to alot of park's enterences but nv entered..at underwater world there saw the gaint turtles ha so ENORMOUS sia..also walked erm i dunno wat lar..haha juz wanderers..Oh! and took cable car back to vivo...it has been like ages since i last took it u know!!ha..and yups wander around vivo too...saw the graffit artist works in an intresting shop..then there are nice works there lar..juz tt i cannot remember them..lol..yar..then the heart pain dinner..which i eat till very xing ku...but best is the ice cream i think...my teeth not pain..ha..then i think i got abit of "zi yei bing" aiyah benj also have..ha keep talking about sch things..i keep talking about CA things..cause its really still messing through my mind...Arrgh...yups..ha then saw some intresting characters at vivo also..very cute hors?



then home it was!..the next day suppose to meet my 'family' go vist the houses for red packet...then jas sick..we wanna visit her..but she nv pick up phone..yijai last min need to help her mum at her shop...in the end was me and the two guys...wha..and my breakfast i eat mc chicken..take ages to eat it...OMG..big diff from my ususal time..ha...we all quite ressless lar..the from wenhui's house when calv's..at calvin house they let me watch m18 show..haha later jas kill u all ar...haa...movie tittle Crank..yar ok lor can watch lar..ha then i thought dinner was to be at my grandmas house..and was preaparing to leave when the info i get i wrong..GOSH....i always get the wrong info de sia..sadded..and i need to rush down to my daddy's working place..haiz..i didnt pourposally wanted to be late..but yar partly my fault by not getting my info right..haiz..scolding in the end lor..and the dinner was a toture to my mouth and teeth..OUCH!!...

And now coming to today..yups i wore my boots tt i purchased in thai for the 1st time..lol...abit scared tt its Too OVER..ha but the monent i spet out i see other ppl wearing boots too...haha heng..but not as high cut as mine lar..ha..then i meet hui hui and khai..go walk walk..hui hui wanna go get her black heels..as for khai..alot of things lar..cause she go voucher allover her..haa..and i on a DON NOT SHOP mode...haa..we took puri kura also..wah..then face white as my cloths lar..haa..and i got my hand on my tusbasan at last...!!ha..but sobs..the box abit damaged...waaaa...cry sia..i wan nice nice sia..nvm..borrowed a book to get myself started to read and at least change my focuse..i have alot of thing to do..but i am not doing...how??haa...yup..after tt acturally plan to go sch pass and put stuff..didn when in the end..instead when city hall to returl the top to ben..had dinner wit khai and benj..then walk walk abit more for kahi to find her cap..found one! but..cannot use the voucher..awww..so after a few more shops around 9pm left for home...when i wanna tap card on bus i could not find my wallet at ALL...GOODNESS..in an instant i figure it will be at BK i chiong down the bus..meet benj and he when back wit me to buger king where we had dinner wit me..HENG AR!!! my wallet was really there...SMILES...yeah!! found it found it..!!all the important things is inside u know...yar then finally can take bus peacefully home..haa..and benj says he is freezing in the bus he took home...lol..got become ICE??ha..ok i am writting it down all very shorttened..cause i need to get some rest..tml going an interview..see if it will work lor..need $$...the world is tt pratical now...sobs..haha..take care ppl!!

straightened!

wha..my teeth feels weird...today acturally say going to pluck teeth..but haa..nv pluck..juz place in the rubber bands...ha and quite unconfortable lor..then ben ha very free sia..pei me go dental..then go bugis to do my duty..he brought me food too..but difficult to eat lor..haa..do duty till 9plus oh sugar..i forgot to see finish the displays...then tml going to see the flower thingy in sentosa i think..dunno will be better then last year anot..last year seen be4..hmm..so far for my survayer things also got some problem...sugar i really need money liao..cause my braces treatment i think my father cannot affort...so i need need lobang...i need to earn 2thousand plus for total treatment..but not on shot pay lar...now need 700 1st...then need to save for next year...juz now my dad also say me don spend so much le..he cannot pay for us..haiz..he nv force me to go work for my expensses next year..but i can realy feel his preasure..i wanna help lighten.

hmm...as for the FO..yeah! my thoughts are kinda straightened le!!hurray...yups i was contredicting myself yesterday..cause i cannot let go..and wat my sis told me was very right...'na de qi, yao fang de xia' and its like i have been messing around wit this type of things for 2-3 years le...[maybe except for campfire..]its time to change and do other things lar..no point keep didnt the same things..yes its different as the ppl u work wit is always different..bu the parretn and structure of the camp is basically the same...not saying tt i cannot do at all lar..juz must try to let go and try other stuff...

and yar its at this type of time i remember y i respect my sister..she is experienced and knowledagable..and always show me another way to think my thoughts...and she told me that TIME IS EQUALS TO THE ANOUMT OF COMMIMITMENT!! full comiment MEANS die die also go down...cause i need to work to self stupport and maybe pay my dental treatment..i can only give tt amount of commitment, and they don wan my that amount only, therefore they cannot want me, not tt i don want to do its more like they don want the audrey who cannot give the time to do this camp..Passion is one thing..but wit passion and no time also cannot do..so if ppl who are doing it..think about it lor.. then i think my fellow ex PCs will do a nice finish one, I HAVE FAITH IN U..GO GO GO..i can also help if u need..REALLY!!!...i think thats the best i can do for u all..today jakei told me to pass my things to august i feel gulity lor..that august have to take up this things wit all tt she have already...hmm i will help her more maybe...but now i trying to change my focuse..but dunno where to change it too..so keep stoning myself 1st..watch alot of inuyasha...hee hee..my eyes super pain also le...cause i think i over wear contacts in my thai trip..so think 1 week cant wear contacts...haa...all this FO i want to do i want to do..i nv considered much in if i can do it anot...[haiz audrey always nv thinks much when she is doing something...only think after the thing is done..haa] but juz now i saw a songal which i think is really meaningful.. "its Acutrally not can or cannot do, its if u dare to do." i kinda thinks it true..so be bold STUND ans STUND THEM in a GOOD way..k??haha nvm..i go shower and watch vcd le..ha tat ppl..Think for urself k? take care really and good luck!!

Struggling...............

OHHHHH......guess wat big thing i did today?? well after returning from the tip yesterday night while i sleeping i realised i am screaming and shouting in my sleep lar...very the scary sia stress till like tt...in the moring i toked abit to my mum..and ask her views on my camp sitiuation and her answer was super clear and direct..."if u don have the time, then don do..."whao! englitened..so with tt mind i think and think on bus..reach sch talked to wai meng and jian ming...see if they cant take over my job as campfie IC...then i even more feel cannot tahan..therefore i told jim i cannot continue..yups i told him i decide to be out of the Planning com..1stly cause i am stressed till dunno like wat now..cause of the Job and camp thing..the job to tahan my next years spendings for assignments...2ndly cause i need to take up the job i cannot come down everyday 9am to 9pm..well tts the main points liao...and he says alot till i blur one the things..and well he kinda want speak for me..which i don aggre of lar...he did mentioned tt since i cannot make it for 9 to 9 everyday then no point continue as he expects the PCs to do so..dosent matter if i can finish my work or not cause he believes tt the 9-9thing helps to bond the PCs together..then he says i have not experiences the fun they have at all cause i no there...but i will dare to say i felt it..but only on one day..last friday i think..like for onces when i look into their faces they seem to trust me and not have tt doupting face..espically when i talk to janet and guan jie..we can talk!!ha so feeling very great tt day..but then sat and the rest was..not reall lar..haiz...so there u have it..audrey has lighten her load...well..in a sense yes..i don have the PC name on me anymore..but i want to continuse doing the things tt i am doing so far..like the campfire..the tresure hunt..its like my unborn baby tt feeling and i wan to see it complete...then how?so i offer it as a favour to them tt i will complete it..and like i am also not asured tt my help would be of use..cause i not PC not BIG anymore..ha..like if i finish my campfire it may not even be approved...yar..acturally i feel tt this way would be for the better..as it will be fair to the rest of the ppl who came everyday 9-9pm..the amount of time they put in..but when i was addresing to the whole PC who were there..the thing tt guan jie told me make me think alot...since i am continuing the campfire..and the tresure hunt..wats the difference as being a PC excpet being in the song sesion...well kinda true u know...n the thing is i WILL come for the song sesion and i WILL want to learn the songs...then tt means its even more STUPID of me to not be a PC? GOSH!!! i am so confused now...but thinking of it tell me tt maybe not all of them mind me not turnning up everyday..to think it at a brighter side..maybe they understands my sistustion??!! don mind me not coming everyday but i am offering my help!!?? [if its true then i will be so darn happie and delighted sia...] Then its the 1st time i really interacted wit the QMs while we do the fire wood thingy..and i know them abit better..its like..i feel tt acturally u don need to be there 9-9 to be bonded wit them lor..its see how much we interact..cause within tt few mins i see more of wei yi character..and elsons too..cause most of the time they are quite reserved..

wha..all this defeats the pourpose of me making my decision like tt leh...by right like what clement says..i should not regreat it..since i already decided..but...AHHHHH......i wanna stranggle myself...then cause i didnt really think too much wat will be effected when i make this desision..now i found out tt its quite a big thing lor..cause the princess will be lost..and i hear i will be telematech GA..so will be gone...then cause my posotion is a new one tt many ppl fought for me..after i realised the campfire thing i feel like theres a smack on my face...like..wha!! i will be letting down alot of ppl tt i don want to let down...ppl like my Ah gong, the 1st person tt i know in CADC and who is VERY on the same frequency as me..Shao kai..though i migh have some conflicts wit him at times but i respect him for his abilities ..most importaintlly he is the one who really made me rebelieve in CADC again and again..[twice u know...]haiz..they believed in me..and i believed in myself..but i am sadded tt cause the untold expectiontins from the camp cheif made the sitiustion into this now..Seriously i should not compare myself to others now..though at times i do..i will always think like wat wai meng says there are also ppl who cannot give 9-9 inside the PCs so theres no need to go for me...i really dunno really confused now...suppose to be more qing song de rites??haa...yar wat benjemin says is true and i understands...jim is the camp chief and sometimes he have to do wat he have to do, whichs not allow me to continue and consider the view of the other PCs, thier wealfare...but i really want to ask all the PCs if they understand my sistuation and if they would allow me to do that..cause so far everything is hear from jim..and like i need to interprate wat he is telling me..and think there is plenty of misinterprations...i hope to hear form the PCs themselves..cause i believe they can see i am trying, maybe its wat i hope it is lar...i jus know i have the passion to do, i want to do..not as to forfuill the responsibility anymore..yes i still have strong determination to do my campfire and treasure hunt..i know tt i can acomplish and do quite alot there, and ha..seriously speaking i kinda like the songs "only when u know them tt is....." but juz because of the time factor and then let everything off..i am not allowed HA HA...stupid audrey...ha ahgong also agrees...dies...

haiz...tml will go dental agains..and bye bye to two teeths...will miss u all..haa...i scared will be very pain sia..and since i already out i wont have to saty long dere...after tt go help help the grad show maybe...see hows the dental 1st lor...hees.......scary....well then..when i arrange the photos from the trip then i blog about it lor..haha...been writting alot of words and thoughts this few days..cause alot of things going on my mind..ha think when u all read it u all can so called feel the messyness rites??ha all this is really wat i think and feel now..wats dere to hide rites?ha..well gtg...tata...so tired...hees...take cares ppl!!!

Ahhh....

hee hee...i am at airport now....juz check in and going to eat breakfast...whoots!!but...hee i for got to reply benj msg..cause i wake up last in the moring..then chiong out le..i also nv bring phone...at home..so u all wanna leave any sms also can..don worry tt it will case more ex...wanted to msn tell him..e-buddy don allow msn to offline ppl...haha and worst of all i cant remember ur e-mail...[wat a bad friend...] will return at night of 21st i think...if can tahan then go down club k? Thanks for ppl who woshed me happie new year..and tt wish me safe trip...gtg...go eat...haha tata...!!love u all lots...i dunno dere got wat...will see if i can buy anything lar...no $$ of my own..but then later i buy liao no1 wants also sad....like tt study trip things all still at my home....ha bye ppl!!!

Happie NEW YEAR

HI there ppl!! 1st of all i wanna wish everyone a Happie new year!!! yeah yeah...but then hor..haiz..sad sad...wont be able to ebrate much lar..going over seas in a few more hours..like 3hrs?haha...leaving at 4plus am in the morning...yeasterday after CADC when home do to some tresure hunt thingy..wanna do some so tt i can leave it to them to do on thursday...at least "jiao dain" abit...and was suppose to help marilyn they all to find telematch songs...wha.mutiply trick me lar...wates hours listening to alot of quite crappy songs...those can fall alslepp one...ha...at last found one quite suitable the song..but at the back got techno...think can cut off lar..but i not expert so abit abit here and dere...not joined properly...by the time i do going to ok like tt its already 3-4am le...then need to reach sch at 9am mah...7am must wake up..i don think i can wake lor...so asked benj to call me wake up as he is still online...ha..in the end all thanks to him ha ha i was not late..cause i nv sleep at all...he pei wo talk whole night...ha thanks ar..really...u are the 1st ever person who did tt..haha and this is the 3rd ir 4th time in my life tt i did not sleep a wink at all through the night..haha...when taking bus to sch i missed my stop tt i always alighted..heng stop at clemiti in time..ha..then reach sch not late lar...ha..passed my stuff to liang liang..and waited waited for the newly up dated shedue...haiz...sun got raccky...SUGAR...i don know how now lar..but i don wan to think tt far...throught the talk wit benj i found a route to walk..but i dunno if i want to choose tt..if i did then its like wasted efforts for me...hai hai...leave sch 1030...take bus home..but cause i very sleepy i missed 2 bused of 184...wha...2bus leh...want to die sia...i feel like calling kor kor to drive me home..haha..but got on at last lar..heng...hee..reach home smack!!sleep..hees..oh and give afternoon wake up call..had lunch and then sleep wake up have dinner...hees..piggy...tis year PIG year mah..ha nvm rites?muhahaha... so here i am now...still doing some treasure hunt things..and typing in my thoughts...

yeaterday [friday lar] stayed till late in sch wit them...jim had a talk wit me..long but also not tt long...yups we have distanced...not because of FO...seriously i think even from shoe design we have been abit losing contact le...dont u realise? yar..then was saying tt i am like sui ping...wants to be free...yar yar watever..i am not saying tt i don feel this way at all lar..the though did pass my mind..but i am not and its not the same..a want and a need..if i was the same then i think u wont see me tt much as u are seeing me now...cause i would want to work for a camera DSLR a wacom and a sewing maching...and all this 3 things contribute for my sch work as well..ok maybe sewing maching not tt much..but i am not doing that..u get the diff?? my main point is tt i am will to spend less but more useful time then spenind whole day and not knowing wat to do there, in a harsher tone is...i am a VERY busy person, i don wan to wate my time not doing things tt is all in my list..cause i got too much to complete..like lay yan, she come down when ther is song sesion abit sme logic lar..juz tt i have a PC name to hold lar...ok its very very heavy...ha... then the issue of me juz doning mine and splitting it very obviouslly is cause i cant help ppl if i can even finish the things i suppose to do...And if i don remember wrongly i think he mentioned tt i was difficult to talk to now a days?? i dunno...maybe its all because of these external and internal factors that made me into how i tal and act now..ha benj was..i think kinda shock and wander how i tahan all this...haha..Yes i am From CADC, but i am also SD. Though i have taken up job as A PC in CADC, i also offered my help in SD. Offered u know...not become a PC dere...so is like doing more for CA le lar..then i already missed alot of things they ar doing already, so i will need to balance it out once in a while...out of my 7days of a week..3days to work... some half of the 3days to CA, the rest of the 4days also to CA, but might have dental and small events. I don see myself "dui bu qi-ing" my role, juz tt if u compare me with ppl like jasmine i send less time lor...if u compare me wit sui ping i am not tt "chan" lar..its how u see it...the way i see it is thats the best i can offer already...

Anyway...going off to thailand wit my family 3more hours later...better catch some rest 1st..i haven pack finish my things..and the stupid thing is i brought work along wit me...reports and song book..ha..mission...at least remember the chinese words for the songs?ha..wander wat i will see there...ha i see my dad pack so nice cloths dere..ha shirt sia...and my sis bring nice short and stuff...i need to change some cloths i bringing le..haa...cannot bring all the camp cloths...And to peng yu wz clem..haha thanks ar...ha but the the person wont write who he is le...i will never know who tt a s s person is...sadded lor..haa...ok well take care ppl!!see ya soon...hope u get enough hong bao this year...i wont have alot...can go ur house take?? i promise to be guai??lol...haha hope i can hmm..relax abit wit my family this time...our very 1st overseas trip as a family..beautiful beaches...here i come!!! miss me!!~~~~wheee.........!!!!!!

Val Day!! [verge of breaking down]

hello people...been really really busy this 3 days..i am going mad..and i wanna give up..and who ever tt ANON person is FUCK off...[you ppl know i seldom use this words, so this is serious...don drive me to do thins tt no1 like] say watever you want as if i care...if u want to think in this way then carry onlor...i write so tt i can read it myself and clear some things up in my head..u have a problem..? somtimes however busy u are u still need time to reflect and think through..like i metioned i know i have not been doing, i admit ok not like i wanna hide about it.juz shoot if u got anything to say, any thing u by swang about me..people like u are juz living your life not learing anything.. anyways i am aready pissed and emo enough so i wont want to address to you anymore..

lets try to think of the happier times during this days...13th feb...got to do jae..in the morning meet wang jia do the design thing..after jae got dinner..so whole day nv when down for cadc..stoopid nv die be4 de waimeng pang sea me last min...thanks weesoon for taking time out...was funni rites?then wed whole day when for cadc..my 1st every one whoe day dere...well well ok..in the morninga abit shoot by jim and CCH...now i know the things i need to complete...fine..i nv say i wont do, juz tt i dunno wat i need to do...all their stoopid face starting to aggitate me...i need to catch up wit all their song practice..fine..i believe and i know i would be able to..as for the reports..HELLO.......u last min anyhow boomb as me tml give u meh...? insane...in the morning while everyone doing their reports, i asked xinyi to tell me ans teach me song tt they gone through...then after tt the song practise was long long long and long...but i learn all the songs and actions...juz tt not perfect lar..got small mistakes at times..and well chinese songs more error...then all this things tt i tried and watever all i get is an critict..fanstict...fine...when home qurraled and got scollded...redo the treasurehunt stuff..read through my old campfire things..till fall asleep on sofa...today morning drag myself out of bed to do housework for mummie...reach sch late see those faces again...smile audrey smile....instead of smiling i really feel like crying lor...in my head was like screaming shut up lar...i really feel like shouting out...but i know i will cry and break down over dere...hack everything and then i when for my dental...reach sch song secion again...

didnt eat my dinner...nv eat lunch..nv eat breakfast...only afew slips of water today...yups so audrey is trying to kill hersef her...who cares? yar i know u all done ALOT...how ALOT is it? the board also only 3 things completed...and one of it on the board is part of my work ok...yes its simple..so? i complete it ok...not as if if i don do those big big reports like outdoor and indoor means i not doing rites? and juz because i didnt really come for the 1st 2 day...my efforts on the 3day is soo useless then fine...try for wat? watever i do now will persive to u all as nothing..the mindsept is there already and its quite impossoble for u all to break through..yes i have work..yes i am going overseas...and YES i am doing everything that we wernt suppose to do, but have i not done my work?! have i not learnt the songs? did i throw all that i am part off to another person?if u tell me yes i am not doing anything. ok i wont carry on..and u will see wat is called not doing.. if it still insnt the case, then why all this unnessery faces and pressure? you all already said, we are a big family so we try to understand one another and help one another, y is it that i see ppl understanding her more then my sistuation...? i work to lighten my farther load for me, my future spending on assign will increase and my hrs are juz on sun mon and tues, no ful time and stuff, not tt i cannot take..is i don wan cause still got camp..if i really wanna become a surveyer i believe i can earn 100plus aday lar..comprimising is one thing,understanding is another since i cant reach the point of it, i expect u guys also unable to reach me...

as for val i acturally wanted to write about the ppl around me ad really thanks them..but maybe not in this post lar...its so harsh up dere..and after bursting part of my bubbles inside i really don think its apporated to thansk all the freind now..maybe next time.. audrey fainting out....................................................tata

choices and desicions...

hi ppl...my gosth i feel abit stressssing now...money matters..the needs and the wants...well all is want lar...and the wrk thingys... well to update 1st is my family is going over seas together, as in take plane tt kinda..for the 1st time every on the coming 18th feb till 21st..2nd thing is i have been working as an survayer like 2day? yups today is the 2nd day..working as one survey 1dollars..door to door survey about recycling..body aching liek madness lor...after swimming wit aiai on friday abit "swan" then wit all this walking arounds and stuff.wha.pain pain ar...after my 1st day i hit 52 surveys..then the incharge wanted to engage me and hui hui to become TL[team learders] which means we will be splitted..then will get more pay lar...20dollars basic pay? and if i nv hear wrongly he mentioned about earning more the 100 per day? attractive hor? but then i cannot do all and everything in it wat..i still got FO to do..acturally say tt we have flexable times one lor...now like wanna tie me down?? wang another one...acturally helping him in my own will..but now want my commitments..i haven finish the things tt i suppose to do for him..hees

ok i know i have been neglating about the FO things..but there is only one Audrey and she is a weakiling...gives in to alot of things...so offered help in alot of things thus getting her head into alot of commitments..i tried my best to appear but dosent make any differences wat..alot of information i REALLY dunno and nv heard be4, so u expect me to vomit out a huge sum of $ out? goodness i am suffuctating..i do think daddy will give me the $ how...and the up comming camp SHIRTS...they say got 5shirts isit? if one couse 10bucks i can die already...acturaly my family dose not know i am organising a camp..juggling of time and $ now all the preasure is on me..don come and tell me u mention to me about asking my parents be4..cause u didnt! In the meet up i remember very clearly my main questionto u is Wat do u or will u expect me to do for the camp for u..u did not gie me a clear answer and i made myself know tt i am not very hyped and 101%commited, i also asured u that thought i am not tt commited u can still count on me to being hype during the camp, well for the sake of the campers lar...i wont fail them but in a sense i think u fail urself failed us..when i inform u about my duties the face like change lar...but wat can i do..juz feel super gulity...hmm..i am starting to fee outcasted..or i casted myself out lar...everyone dose their stuff but i don have things to do..don even know y i am there..all the people i have to work wit are doing their own stuff..reading blogs..playing? oh well..wat to say?

Then audrey ar audrey...u so broke liao..u still got soo many wants tt u cannot resist...the DGDD ppl selling Tusabasan at a cheaper price and the box packiaging is super nice lor...box1 at 29.90 box 2 also same...but there is another cheaper version of box1...i check wit outside stores..they sell box 1 ans 2 each at 29.90 too..but the person tell me its part one only...erm so part 2 is? i am quite comfused lor...tml go ask peoperlly..haiz..and i still wanna get this and that...$$ not ebought...i really wanna erase my brain ar...so many things going on and on...i keep things about all this..but wats the use...think onli mah...

tml doing JAE shif..i dunno the attire for it leh..nv recieve the email..but going out later so lazy ba..wear smiformal all the way..hack..be4 tt meeing wang to show him shirts tt i have not completed much of...dots(O_O)....then after jae go see movie..wai meng pei me..and cause i treat him movie he has to treat me dinner...ha ha...hope i can juz have sometime to AUDREY and like juz rest and play? for now can only play while working...think and worry while sleeping...haiz..getting alot more white hair soon...i don need some1 to come up and say hey i help u complete everything..maybe juz ppl to consult to..if possable help me make myself think of solustions and make my own desisions?and i think i mention be4 tt motivates me?ha startting to see my own light le...ok..now i feel raf's tking to yourself at times dose works...juz tt ppl might feel u are insane...ha..well gtg take cares!! and to all new Olevels holders hope u get into the course u desire..and Go all out for the cousre u are sure u want to get in!!NO regrates!!

SMILES

yoyo!!1stly i must say below entry is written by wai meng himself..haha...yeah..today i anyhow draw finish the assignment le..tml going to hand up then whoots...!!but sadly is tt CADC FO need to start doing alot of things le?lol.....abit sian..i dunno y things becomed this way..but it is now...i dunno how u gonna save it...n i wont want to interfere...juz do wat i need to do...ppl who seems to be doing ALOT arnt doing anything at all then i do so much for wat...juz let those who wanna prove themselves or show they doing alot to do lor..tt was wat i thought from the start. Other then campfire, i don think i got things i need to prove..let others have then chance lor?hees...headache ar headache ar...

hmms...monday chiong project cause they say submission..but was extanded..lol..always tt lame de lor...then think wates the rest of the day in sch..helped BE ADD abit..ha count things onli ba?oh..and offer ideas..ha dunno if will use anot...tues i cannot remember do wat already..maybe watch VCD whole day?? hees finish watching xiao yu er le...wha..behind sad sad de lor...don want...i like the front better so funnie and sweet....acturally i really kinda understand y pei boon likes those ppl who makes him laugh..ha like sun...well its better to make urself laugh then cry wat rites?ha...wed got the briefing for JAE..ha also don really know wat is going to happen lar..anyhow wack...JAE reminds me about the experience i had last time...i wanna wack those pick up phone call the assiastants...haa..after the breifing dunno wat to do so when out wit jian ming and wai meng with thier sec sch friend to get ther CNY and ADD cloths..ha..jian ming so difficult to please..make us walk so many shop..haa jkjk...got one shop quite sugar lor...tt sales personal..wha..if i am the boss i fire him sia..like forcing us to buy something...still question me in a ferice tone "OK WAT IS THE PROBLEM?" u wan me to say ur shirts very ugly meh....lame..finally found a shirt tt is NOT all black!! not dull!!haha..i don wan let him wear so dull, like wat he always wear..hee.. Then the friend of theirs abit ass lor..of all things u say tt to me..nv die be4..u heng tt day i wear skirt..ha..after tt they pei me go take bus..at skate park there i tripped and fell??!!...lol lor..when they pull me up suddenly mu bus come..chiong ar..run..pain lor..and no seats to sit..awww...

thurs which is today..pei boon yesterday night then told me about the class going out and shop together..then i dunno wan go help jian ming they all see or go wit class..cause my leg abit pain..and if i go wit class need to wear nice nice like i promised pei boon..so i hide at home 1st...hee..i asked zihu and khai both also caonnt go..so i stay home watch inuyashatill 6i think then go plaza sing there find wai meng and jianming..jm got a jeans down dere..i saw a boots but no size..hees nvm save $ 1st...haa..i tot to save abit go buy the tusbasa from DGDD they all...they selling at a cheaper price then outside for the JAE..wha..till 14th onli...dunno can save till 60buck anot..hope so..i don really know if should buy leh...Arrgh..hows?...

hmm...tml going to pei zihui for job interview...surveyer...i think will die ar...nvm i try lor..acturally more of pei her..hees cause i don think i got strength to chiong so much le..coming sat got a series of FO things...wha i don think i can stay long down dere got to finish other things..sat also big day for waimeng clem they all...ADD ar...ha ust take nice nice photo back hor..don all too much flash or red eye u know...ha..if need any help on tt day can tell me..haa style hair hair yeah!!erm but i cannot find my straightner...so sorry..hees..wander how all of them will look..jian ming can imagine..wai meng no..cause i don even know wat top...clem no..cause nv see tt tutle neck be4...ws? nv hear him mention about his attire...tp MIA..lesile i guess blazzer?dunno..haa.. juz read finish khai's fanfiction story...sweet moulin rouge twist..COME WAT MAY ppl!!hees...i go watch VDC le..tata

I SIMPLY LOVE WAI MENG

Wai Meng Wai Meng is the best! He is simply the best guy in the world. always there for me... awww he is the sweetest guy on earth! =D

AT last!!

whao whao! twist!..ok quite long nv updated..partly cause i amm busy wit the projects..and i cannot long in to blogger..dunno y..my firefox like got problem..keep time out...hmm..wah actualy got alot of things want to say and type one..but then like dunno wat to say now..hee hee..let me see...after tt sunday..monday when back to school to ask leon about my crowbar idea..ha..wed need to hand in already then now monday still asking idea...wander how to hand in on wed..but well i did finished lar..took photo on tues and edit...all the printing on wed..ha..after meeting leon..then stay in sch cause at night got opening ceremony for school of design and the experience design center...while waiting we watch devil wears parda..ha..then me and khai went to mrt early to wait for the class..lol..mean while we talkied...haiz..[everytime i talk about things i kinda see things more clearly..i think i might still be thinking about the past..which cannot be the present anymore? i dunno lar..ha really dunno about this kinda of stuff..]ok..get back to the day..then our class so guai..reach super early lor..waited like so so long for the thing to start at last..i fall asleep lar..cause tired..then the senior vedio me lar!!!ahhh.......but wat most crucial is the food dere!!hee hee...be4 tt i scare our bag which is left at cadc kana locked..so when back to take..lol..py they all still playing game down dere...



see..ha this is wat i ate...soooooOOoo much sia...hahabelow is wat one of my friend ate..see the diff?ha..and we eat ice kachang too...well tt one is share lar...





then we when to drew my our post card..hees its a combined work..i did the bear bear..lol the tablet abit difficult to use ar...gou zhen drove his car tt day and offered to drive me home wha so nice..ha y not? before tt took the 01's for a few rounds in his truck..wha but drive the car to school for a pourpose de lor...acturally is want to drive sp home, then sp dont want cause she know gz like her..he then ask me one..wha liao..and say till very nan ting sia...emo liao lar gz..hurt me deep deep..sobs..ha..then he drive wrong somemore...lol...went a big round..and yar...half way he wanted to let me off le..lazy to sent me home...dot dot...ok lor..i know i not sp mah..haha

tuesday is assign chiong day for me..took pic of khai and hui hui..cause cant really find others..and i also took alot of test shots of other things...some i think very nice lor..ha later show u all..ha..wed is where i print all my stuff and chiong the presention and final submission..but guess wat? we chiong like mad for 4pm..in the end cher cannot make it...next moring then date line..Wat the.......lol..hack..since i have put in my effort and chiong witin the time i think it should be good enough lar...i got others to chiong also..so i jus pass up wat i have...when dinner wit waimeng and his friend...pei him till quite late cause he waited for me..while he play game i drew my work..and yeah!finally i drew a succesfully phoniex...hurray!!ha at night reach home start chiong liao...drew it all in illustrator..as in the whole picture..did alittle of line seperaton so wont be tt confused..prepare to print everythings and really chiong on thrsday...wai meng promised to help...lol..thurs morning want to print the things quite ealy one..but was pulled and dragged back till 3plus then print finish and start doing...louckly i have ppl who helped me...i love u guys sooOo much..!because of u all i can finish my work...i shall thanks u all here...thanks to...waimeng jianming their friend..layan augustina..calvin and his gf..i dunno how to spell her name..and thanks to jelena...thanks u all for helping me cut the paper..and doing many others...after tt i chiong home to put the things together..and start piling the report..well its kinda little lar..finially read the brief haha..and learnt tt i must protect the 3d...so must make frame...friday need to summit by 4..so mornign i reach at 830..they were late...nvm i don blame them...they are not obliagted to help me mah..i did my report while waiting..and we started the frame..ha the biggest problem is the plastic cover..ha and i cut wrong..cause i hear the mesurement as 39 by 26 but is 29 by 36..lol...but last min le so no choice juz use lor...i feel so happie and hourned tt alot of ppl is helping me in my project...hees...deyi help me find spot light..he and tt EEE guy..forgot his name le..help me think of how to place my instructions..ha..

My final assignment for drawing studio....




ha after tt celebrated abit with waimeng lay yan and the friend..seriously i only know his name only on friday after 4days of seeing him!!haha..weifeng i think..ha..we ate pizza in sch then each have to go off le..to work to home.. so i when home lor...and i think i slacked the rest of the day...hees...today also...wanted to start doing my assign for monday..then i watch tv whole day till 4plus then go out...when out wit clem wz and ws..acturaly their online friend was coming..but maybe not..haha..saw vannessa when we took bus dere..stoopid laogong still so bad...play prank on me wit wz and clem...sobs..haha and wz tot she was a guy..ha yar she very man..tts y call lao gong mah..judo cham in sch sia..don play play...and now dragon boat..ha..when to take 2free movie ticket..and i was super blur the rest of the day..head pain..maybe tired..and i really don wanna think much talk much..but alot of things are constanlly in my brain..pain..ha and sorry lar..i really dunno how to tell u guys i nv say fully..cause i think i also dunno wat i think yet...but tts how i feel now. When gaming with them..well of cause i didnt play lar..they did..haha i so blur now..how to play..
[see how focused they ar...lol..ha abit funnie...]

after the assi and i sleep enough then we play again k? ha..when for small supper and then go home..ha i think ws reach home later might emo again...ha go down find ur parents lar..ha..home alon ok de lar...hees...well..later watch some more xiao yu er..then tml reallly must do DET le..ha..tired..but i still want to watch...haha smack tt 60th aud inside tt love to watch tv...ha..

ok...PHOTOS time...haha...

photos of Uniform DAY in our class..

only me and steff lasted all the day wit school uniform..



our 'famliy' gathering neoprints!!calvin so pretty..hees...his new haircut..


lesile...ermm wat is he doing? attemping to throw and catch the hat wit his head...


me abit inseany...hees...attemp to muder hui hui wit the file?ha..

Holidays?

hi ppl....holidays for me..yet not holiday for me...well no more lessons..but still haven finish handing up assignments..this coming wed and Friday is submission...chiong ar!! oh know wat??SERIOUSLY tis few days ALOT of ppl have been adding me in msn and i dunno who they ar...all guys...ekks...all hi..then ask name..ask from where and wat age...like got 10plus ppl..i really cant remember which one is which..don even remember tt time say those things to me de is who..got one send me e-mail to ask my birthday..dunno wanna let him know anot...lol

today woke up and fall asleep again...when chinatown by myself to get some stuff..don plan to buy any top or clothings de lor..buy y...y CLEMENT...see lar because of u i walk tt place 1st..then see big sale..go in see..then brought a cardigan...saw a few dress which is super nice..but i don wan buy..yet try and see how i looks lar..cause i nv buy then the sales girl pin pointed me lar..say i waste ppl time to take for me..but isnt tt ur job? like u keep telling me all nice here and dere..u see me one person come in good to physco and buy alot rite? i keep reminding myself i cannot buy...cause i brought alot..and most of the time i think i buy because i like abit of it onli..then cause i try alot i feel gulity so buy from them..or yar lar..being physco by the sales person or y friends..haiz..the sales person like tt pin pont me say this type of thing onli china ppl will do not singaporean i feel very wat lor...ok embaress cause she abit scolded me..but like she supers countryisi...not good not good...i think back and feel like audrey u are such a loser lor..ur are the coustomer they give u service u are the HEAD y let them push u? lol...aiyah work as promoter be4 i know their feeling lar..but is like super too auntie le lor..will go back and buy still evn though i don really like the aunties..but they quite helpful..juz abit pushy..and the main point is the cloths there are acturaly quite cheap..the dress wit a long pom pom skirt is 30like tt onli..ok ba..but will be quite long later to go back...


the dress tt i liked...cost 30plus...

the bottom of the dress..which i think is really cute and nice!![then i tried the kahi coloured on of this..tts y tt auntie say me

after tt meet clement to go find wz and ah boi..tt clem..see lar..play card play so long..and the friend, i think all mistook think, i his gf sia..haha cause all look at him wit tt kinda eye..lol..finally reached orchard...well is late of cause..when to fareast to get clem's toy 1st..and off we go to search cloths for them...for both the ADD and CNY..me? i don think i need any for now..u throw me any occasion i think i also got things to wear go de...ADD? got the so call "every girl's little black dress" le...and well acturaly have alot of new dresses...appreciation dinner dunno wanna go anot..maybe can juz plan something for the family ppl..tts the main purposely we going mah after all...hmm..then walk and walk...i think the most useful things they brought today is the booster pack?haha..when i lef wz brought quite a stylo shirt..hopes hw can make an image suitable for it..haha...

they when back to farseat and see clem's turtle neck top..dunno ahboi wanna find wat..then i when to gramdma's house..wha..alot of things to eat..also got chocolate fundue..i nv eat be4..but i know wat it is..ha..oh!! also got crab..but was like i don really know how to eat it...cause think 12 years nv tasted be4? somewhere there lar...maybe 10?after eating alot alot..when up wanna try thinking ideas..but then watch tv..and pulled to go see and try cloths..ha the aunts brough quite a few cloths tt they brought for all and cloths they don wan anymore..those tt can fit and want can take tt type..so is everyone inside dere changing..see free show..and stuff..alot of bottoms i cannot take...haha sayang...caus fat big butt..haha [i admitt ok..] then 8th aunt brought over a dress she brough online from korea..she nv wear be4 and cannot wear..so say wanna sell see who can wear..melyn [i think i spell wrong...my gos..u don even know how to spell ur cousin's name!!] who is smaller size then me tried 1st..then was some think aunts..then i bigger size then melyn so they say me and sheila cannot wear..after alot of ppl cannot wear i cay i wanna try..have a hintch tt i might fit..then someother ppl tried..then my turn..i take a deep breath in..scared i cannot fit..then 1st aunt zip of me...AHha!!can fit..!and i let go the breath i don feel constrained..!!whoots..cause alot of ppl all cannot fit..be4 i try we were like saying its a version of the glass slippers from Cinderella, cause tt dress can fit is can fit..cannot is cannot..then whoa..i was supprised i really can fit..!ok..we also mentioned tt it wil be sold for 80bucks cause its so rear..and guess wat? it was said by my mum..lol..80bucks i don wan sia!!fee i wan..haha cause i spened alot..then 8th aunt say 15..i say 10..haha so called sold..but i nv give her $..and now the dress is with me..ha..so now wat?pay? or not to pay? lol...then now reach home..blogging..well like wasting time sia..i need to think for crowbar..now worry i don have time to complete for wed sumbission...best of lucks aud!


the white top tt i can fit but others cannot..hahah...


the cardigan tt i brought...looks like viveein one..


the amount of clots tt i got today..alot i wanna go and edit to another look..haha hope i can...

few more days...

aww..few more days and year 1 will be through...we will go to year 2[hopefully] and hopefully we will stay together as a class not splited next year...the year3s will then grad..go see their shows..[busy for us again...] and a long year will repeat..ha sound so boring ar? ha..morning wok up late to do project...when taking bus saw doreen whao!! and we were talking about finding a job during holidays...ha and then i tell her about tt messy FO issue...well i will do and stuff but i am unsure about my own commitment level..hope its a nice experience.. reach school then mingle around wit flash and dreamweaver..till 230? had lunch together..the when down SD to try listen to the FO..but they late late late...so chiong up the hill again to judge DDM's coprate identity...whao...some are super good lor...i next year also need to do..but is indvisual sia..will die..surely die..need alot of $$ to print and make all those stuff...so u get wat i mean by needing a job...ha

after tt is like 5-6plus le..do some dreamwever touch up and print out assignment..by then go down they finish the meeting liao..ha nvm..eat dinner wit khai in sch then left at 8plus...reach home and finished the IDS assignment..well tml the 2 assignments will be down...left 3more...and its all kinda big big de..tt one then die..haha now haven even fixed the idea or concept..how to save myself? next week though holiday i think i still wont be free...need to do the projects..submission next week...ha..

oh..tml our class going be have uniform day!! the day be4 we had class photo apity that not all was present...3werent here..but 2 of our lectures are inside...


abit of a formal shot...[eeks y i so big size!]


Funshot!!

we had alot of funshots..even did sp's 1st choice sign..haha..acturaly i remember wanna blog alot of things de..but then now the time is 230..and i gotta be in sch tml by9am for crit...so i seriously think i need to ZZZzzzZZ le...got time then say...bye take cares!!

arggh

ahhhhhhhHHHHHH.........helps.....neck pain pain neck pain pain...haha must be cause i sleep infront of the com and then like pulled the neck muscles...plus today whole day i keep watching tv..vcds...and i nv do work at all..wake up..erm for get wat time..but its late ba..then lesli called..dots..then i start to watch xiao yu er..say wanna watch till 2pm only..then do work...but then..haha keep pushing back..i watch till 8pm??haha...super long..then got lesser time to do work??haha...faced computer whole day..but at least i debuged a problem from my laptop..been have abit of problem last few days..esp on sat..wit sp's thumb drives...haha...

oh sat morning...guess wat?when i taking pics for my friend tt cat tt appeared at night appeared again...and this time wha liao...act cute wit me...ha came in and romaed around my hous lor...wanna push it put..but like so bad like tt...play wit it awhile..but gotta comtinue wit my work so no choice push her out..difficult lor...she don wan go out at all...push her out and she enter again...even play wit my paper...lols..and know wat?leave all her fur on my white card...make my photos got cat hair...dots..



ok..sat i forgot to bing my phone out to sch and i was late to do project..so i cant find them at all...heng got fidaus!! hees my saviour...borrowed her phone..called steff got a no..then called another and another link up to find my group mates...haha..when home instead of bigus wit peiboon..and luckly i did tt!! i saw my long lost primary sch friend!!haha..she is tt type of quiet soft speaking type of person..she is the one who saw me 1st..and don even call me..only tap my shoulders..then i saw her..heng ar..or i don think i can hear her when the bus came..ha and a kind hearted lady who sat a 2seater stand up and change place for us to seat...hee hee..but the time like so short cant catch up much..lol..she juz asked me about the handsome senior tt she saw when she came to the course briefing...lol..and the worst thing is i nv bring phone..she got my no. i not sure if i have hers..so ask her sms me..but so far i nv recived yet..aww...

well tml not lessons in the mornign..yeah!!sch start at 11am...but don be too happy..u got too much stuff not done dude..jus complete the 10item my friend needs me to do..well got plenty more...juz added tt i gotta design the blog for him??hmm...quite long nv read html le...die dies...but for now we do assigns 1st k?
gtg bye...

Photos tt i say will show...

ME!! at pei boon's party...

our class of DCMD 1B02..well not all...going to have a whole class on on tis tues...all waer nice nice ar...!!

this is i think quite long ago?ha i found it!!ha taking by mummy[yijia]

its the new try out of tt hand warmers..kinda like it!hees

slack

yoyo!!guessed wat?
now is 130am and i am like just reach home 1hr ago??ha something like tt lar..ha..today dunno why the tired me became the 1st one to be in class..WHOOTS..haha..then gotta wait for lau and the rest..hmm..haha then though about the idea..well i think i am self suicide again..cause instead of the painting which i might be better at..i when for something tt is..well not something i mastered yet lar...then when for a small briefing..wha..alot of compertition coming up..hees..hope to enter all and well maybe win some recgnation?
awards and the attractive pixes too if possible..ha then another want list might be down..!!haha...then was lunch and meeting leon to ask about my criwbar..wha..headache...then sian don wan think liao...haha..when down club..but like also nothing much until clem came and tp open door..haha then so called took clem's laptop as hostage?dots..that one is he say one...then of cause played wit gf and bf..haha..ps lar shoot u..but i wan ppl to see the handsome u mah..haha..

then the dinamic 4or 6ppl ar...dots..they all shoot me together...ming jian...dezhan..arens..and justin..wha liao..say my eyes..i got open lor...bleah...then haven taste my slippers..haha so wanna try??haha..then they left to buy computer..well and i watch movie...then alot of ppl enter and exit till i blur...only know sp is flaring up there and like cause i face the computer i neglated the rest of the ppl down dere..haiz bad audrey...ask jian ming come down u nv talk to him at all...then jim came in wanna talk to u u don care him...dots...how can like that...ha..then the yuzi...nearly scare me...talked wit heng heng and body fats about the FO little things..well u see...front also flesh back also i will do my best for both lar..and well i will say i am very open wit the songs..don worries..hmm i am jus stating my point of view lar..if it offended u all so sorrie...and like ppl keep saying i am "reaponsable" i will do the tasks that i am given..so will nice noce de..like u all i wont want a bad camp?and must see how much i am able to help also lor..some people minght not want any help u see...

After the talkings and stuff...[all talk till quite wanna hang ourselves lar]..calvin wanted to go city hall change his sarawiski crystals..hmm..but by the time those guys finish the computer and stuff..so late liao lor..eat dinner...then when to talk rest slack at esplanate...well told them water front can liao..see...go roof still need to come down...lol lar...left the place at 1130...reach home 1230...heng wz still got bus..haha nearly ar...lol

reach home place bag then wash feet come out...guess wat? shocked cause i saw a cat gazing at me from outside...ha acturaly find it so intresting and cute lor...ha.. i when to take the camera quickly...hmm but the quality was super bad cause of the night..and well...no DSLR...haha..ok working on now..see the cat...


this is the footage where is MEWOED..


like wanna eat me like that...ha and its meowing some parts so funning like dog barking like tt..played abit wit it..but the it is abit scary lor..suddenly came into my house through my gate u know!!ha and well it reminds me about my grand ma who passed away..[cold wind ar...]haha...then i don wannt touch it thought i don think its aggressive...abit wandering if its the few cats tt i brough home when i was young..then they come back find me..haha imaginative? lone today also like tt say me..alot of my ideas are quite imaginative..lol...i reacted but colsing abit of the door..well it got the message got out...but still lingers...and keep meowning at me...thinks it knows i am taking photo of it..haha


cute rites??haha...

it attepmted to enter again..well this time it enter the whole body lor...freakish!!ahhhhh i panic...very long nv play wit them le..and like...suddenly surung up and tailed u...oh my!!ha...oh today meet my so called "client" ha and talked it out abit...gotta rush some stuff for him..and gotta do project tml..guess i got to rest early le..haha...must wake up tml!!heesss nites ppl

sicks...

argh...i am sick of being sicky...is there even such a word?ha...today had to pull myself out of the bead to do project in the morning..well not very useful lar..not productive..but my throat was feeling very pain..was wandering if its the long john the day be4..then i suddenly then remember..must be yesterday run in the rain..then go into air con room..thats y catch tis...ya..must be..and cause of all the over working then immune system low..haha..well long day today...after class also have to go SMU again for the last crowbar talk..and its about PHOTOGRAPHY!! yeahs...but well we were late..so missed some parts ba?i rhink todays talk was all much better then yesterdays...ha plus dere was four speakers rather then3 the day be4..ha..yups there was films too..advertising flims..whoa..nice works..also got works tt u wont understand...lol..best part...or most important part is the fashion photography...well so so on the things he shares..but was and insight on how they do the things..BEHIND the seens..and he got quite nice works...paid highly u know...haha

Really alot of talented people out there..wander if i can make it somewhere there...nonononon..i will and MUST say I WILL...its a want and a BIG want!!ha..been stuffing tissue up in my nose so far...even now...my nose is so painful le...sobs...tml acturaly need to go interview..then plan nice nice and stuff..now tt it is postpone..and i am feeling not tt well..haha tml lock-kok go school...haha...later wai meng disown me...haha...got other interesting stuff tt happened lar.but i need to go orh orh liao...tml class early...at 830...haha..and OH sugar...juz now asked the number i forgot to write down.....dots...fantastic audrey...nvm...tml will take back all the drawings..and the grades..haha the nude drawings...haha who wants??lol...i don have place to keep liao...well then gtg bye...

sleep........

ello ppl...and yups going to complain tt i am still very the tired..i dunno why...acturally i have not been doing much things...and well like getting sick also..isit?hope not...ha cause now my throat feels sore and my nose tap cannot stop..ha...yups...no lesson in the morning..yeah!!but got gems test..reach sch earlyer abit to study the test..in the end nv study at all lar..tok to allan only...ha

when to snack wit wai meng...haiz...always kana shoot...then off to gems..haha crap..i dunno how to do alot!!!and cause nv read untill those part at all...but nvm lor..finished lar...then when back to club...erm help guan jie fixed up his bad..the zip totally came out...ha then we chatted for very long..not really lar..1hour plus?ha then wai meng finish class come find us..lol..then scold me agains...humps..then this time they tag team...shoot me..say i weird say i loud say i bad or wa tso ever...most importantailly ask if i am really a girl...!!haha...ok lar..no lor..not i so heartless initaited 4out of 6 itis for the better mah..and i am sorrie lar...nv lasted cause non last lor?ha..and like i mentioned u ask lor..u all ask will have higher percentage de surely..erm maybe not guan jie..ok maybe not any..aiyah i dunno lar..ha...

nvm then left to do project...erm erm seems to have problem wit it..tml need to do be4 school agains..oh yar..i nearly forgot sia.....after project was crowbar talk again..abit like not useful lar..tml is the last tok on photography..hope got use...think surely will have!!fashion photography...ha an area to explore...when to brought some crowbar books..hope its worth the 50bucks...ha zihao don make me regret lar...i will read it..but maybe not now only...where got time...then reach home 10plus help wang jia do his things again what de...then now after finishing blogging lor...well how about we say copyrighting? ha i don think i could be one...cause my spelling is so chan........haha...well then..going off rest eyes and hope full can do some work in the morning agains...ha tata

tired tired

突然累了。。。really sia..dunno y..maybe been wasting time on things tt dosent matter to some ppl cause it seems tt it dosent make any difference..woke up early wan to do some things for HCD survey be4 lesson later...well do till half sleep...then kor kor brough soya bean for me as breakfast...erm..i drink till sleep?? well i drop the whole cup lar seriously...no joke..then spend time cleaning it up...chiong to school..hmm...finished the form..well now need to find ppl do the survey and then do report lor..thats for HCD...i didnt do anything for VDS which is frightening...cause tts the CORE modue..and its 30%...audrey please use ur brain here...think deep!!throw the rest away..

ha well maybe wat pei boon say was right..replace the links wit something tt u will feel better after reading??ha..but i did read wat u written but then it dissapeared, guess u think its too stupid so u wanna get rid of it? oh well..think i nearly teared when i read tt..but i forgot..nvm after all not gonna matter le..hm..slept in lesson again...so sorrie ms huie...ha after lesson is 6plus le...acturally planned to take bus to clementi and the 184 will have more seates to take...well then 2 74 came mah...so pei boon they all ask me take tt.....lol.....super regret...cause i missed 2 184 buses as its tooo full...Stupid...hmm..but did alot of thinking for the VDS..dunno if its gonna work..and i really dunno how i going to execute it...lol...if illustration? i got a DWS to do le leh...wan to do 3for VDS ar? abit crazy leh...haiz...i feels so tired tt i reach home jus start at tv...ha...tml got gems test..don plan to study at all...then need to do project..and there is crowbar talk at smu again...dunno if should buy the book anot...the more i think the more i wanna buy..but i dunno...papa surely wont pay me de..ha...well dunno lar...go sleep and tml wake up then say lor...ha..(^-^)chaoz.....

15th jan!!

whoohoo!! today late wake up..oh yar dunno if clement did miss call me anot...ha..but i was late for appointment at NUH...haha so bad..1st meeting late...i am so sorries...ha..then was lessons...hmm ok...ok..yar the ids class i was pratically falling asleep..yar yar..u see...haiz...haha..tt pei boon today birthday boi then late for lesson ar...?ha..scrape myself throught the DET lesson..well well seems like i am doing DET work yeah?ha but not others!!oh oh!!! today i think i am dressed totally weird or wat? cause when we enter the canteen though khai and hui hui is walking in front of me a group of gals look at me like i offended them...oh no.......oh..!during ids lesson gou zhen weird lor...but then he asked me take a online plam-fortuen thingy test..well we are not experts so some of the lines dunno which is which...then dunno deep id how deep long and short watever...so i think the reading will not be tt accurate... wanna read it?haha...okies..[if don wan read can skip the next coming paragraph ok?? ha...

READINGS....
Your strong, deeply etched lifeline reveals a strong nervous system. In addition to that it reveals an equally strong physical constitution. The stronger the life line, the stronger the overall constitution, ensuring that there is stamina, vitality and good health.
Your defects in the life line is compensated and consequently you will enjoy good health and long life.You work after careful thought.Nothing is impossible for you.
You possess a delicate body and may suffer from illness during the period of life as indicated by the chain in the lifeline.
You are hard working, alert and work according to a planned scheme. You are quite willing to follow rules and regulations and also to have continuity in a family business.
You are wise and intelligent. You carry out your activities with forethought and conviction. Sensitivity of nature becomes very noticeable.Your moodiness is often uncontrollable, in the sense that the company of people you may be in will dictate your moods.
You may not be mentally strong and might become narrow minded in due course.
You are a person with a cold, unemotional nature with an inability to express love . You are more likely to consider the practical aspects of marriage.
You devote your feelings to a cause. Emotionally you throw yourself in to whatever you are attracted to which means that everything else takes second place. This attraction is mainly related to work and career.
You may not be trustworthy. You are adept at telling lies.
You will be active right up into old age.
A romantic relationship or marriage will head for a split during the time as indicated by heartline.
You may undertake many travels to many places.
Each braclet signifies a lifespan of about 30 years.
You may face setbacks in your career at the point of time the break appears.
You are a person with robust constitution and excellent immunity from diseases.

okie..so i have a healthy body?hope so..erm and i am a cold person..[hope not...] erm well i get cold easily..does tt count??ha..i work according to plan?well tt i kinda doubt...or i plan so much also like tt rite?ha..sensitive and ppl around me affects me..yeah kinda true...huh?nothing is impossable...don bluff...ha..work 1st then forget the rest...well tt jun qi have already discover for me le...ha so sorrie last time...ha but...erm applies sometimes lar not every time? hee..


hui hui and khai!!nice rites?twist!!

ok back to topic of today...after IDS was..do abit of the group work..then left for SMU...erm i voiced out to stop at doby-god le...but we stoped at city hall and walked all the way to national mesum...ke lian de hui hui..got blisters wearing her heels liao still need to walk like tt...the toks were...well some VERY nice and whao!!!seriously...but...some really de...erm ermmm...well don wan to comment...ha i see nic like staring in the sky already...then was reception and gallery looking..but we were all starving so chiong to the food we go!!haha and like alot of ppl following us u know........cause we walk 1st then they follow us..we so scared..cause dunno walking correct way anot...later they hump tump us...haha...then was looking at the gallery...i look abit slow..then they walked off very fast without me...saded..twice in a day le...1st time is the mrt..they when up 1st without me...haiz..then i juz keep quiet le lor...at the gallary they walk off then i also don try to catch up lar...then in the end was like they wait for me...guilty...reach home very tired le..and the leg super pain...dunno today will walk and stand soooOOoo much lor...pain sia in heels...wed and thurs need to go for other toks...well..wat can i say...juz tt i must really rack my brain on the ideas?ha...now i go sleep 1st mornig then think??haha so bad...must wake up audrey!!haha.....

ok then now to address ur issue..cause i know u will see this..[i am clever de ok...ha 'shut up audrey..']....
i am not who u think i am, i don even know who u think i am...
u are not who i think u are, and i still do not know who you are, how would i know if u have changed?
ppl accept one another cause of themselves, y worry? y change? juz be yourself.[tts wat everyone told me]
yups.perhaps perhaps perhaps..timing is a big factor, but wat u done in the time frame and after tt time frame speaks more..well u did nothing much and we'll see if dere is anything els..
A battle pronounced lost be4 the battle itself will surely lose, cause the warrior has already given up, is that wat u are implying?
The gift of speach from god is not useless..if one don speak up then how would others know? i cant read minds..and seriously..i have been guessing ALOT of things le...[will grow alot of white hair de leh!!]
(FINE....after reading it plenty of time..)
PERHAPS i bothered toOOo much! yeah continue...drown in your thought yes i am very confident if u say i am, yes i like to be in control if i showed that, yes i am totally out of this world...demanding watever, and yes u might be right about being insignificant and not good enough so why try why bother, it does not matter anymore. the line is drawn.thank you very much for knowing and trying to accommodating such a audrey.i will end your torment here and mine to.so like how u will like t end it when life goes on, life goes on...

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FREAKISH

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hi
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how r u
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i love to make sex with u

u r nice

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u don even know me

how u erm erm sex?

unknown says:
i love sex
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okie.....i know guys does....

and so wat does it gotta do wit me?

unknown says:
oka
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make wat??
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orh......
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oka
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i want to make sex with u
@udRey] says:
then?

oh..then he offline le...lol....ok i go back try to do work...arghh....i really dunno how tothink of ideas.....

dots......

hi ppl...well today suppose to be a sch work woring day...but i am not doing anything at all......watched a movie wit my brother...then while waiting for him fallen asleep for very long...sugar...

well this few weeks or the past month keep getting ALOT of weird contacts adding me on msn...arrgh..then i have to so called entertain them? i got big problem remembering who is who..and then some tok to me in weird language...erm kinda scared they will say those love love sex sex things? cause dere was one who talked to me like tt last year i think...then i block him le...think nv saw him online anymore....ha and if i don remember wrong he is very young yet married to an old lay le?ha eeks rite? well now on list is 2 guys from lenbondor [think i spell wrong..] they are brothers, the elder one got my contact from the younger one...dots...dere is one from jb who talked to me yesterday...got 3 or 2 who talks werid language to me and keep asking if i am fine...think he only knows tt sentence? oh..and say hi lor...yar hor...comes to think of it all of them is guys leh!! sugar...yar yar..and juz now one of the weird language talking guy ask me if i got more pics..erm...Is this display pic causing all the thingy??

ok then changing..ha...

change to this!!hees very long ago de picture...me and jim my body fats!!


ha..but things between ppl are different already...kida hope this will shoo unknown ppl away and yup..remember how close the 'family' was...think i go ty to concentrate on my work le..tml got dental in the morning...and might have crowbar opening after school....well chaoz...