phew...

cheers to all!! we have completed 2 big assignments yeah!! but..i am feel quite low today cause all my mistakes which i always repeat. Always the same thing happen to me, format, quality..all wrong. We were suppose to mount our work on 2 A2 size board but i made 2 A1 size ones..see the differences? super big i tell you..i was assigned to make a banner few year back and well i kinda messed it up cause of the size and res and cause of this miskate i keep repeating i keep wasting my time redoing and redoing..i hate myself for that..bottom line? i detest MYSELF..scuh huge word to use,but i really feel tt..and i think others might feel that too..

yesterday zihui ask me who am i closer to? i know so much people..the SD ppl? cadc ppl? well i told her i don know..but deep inside i can feel my self scared? varunable as i know the answer is none. I am not close wit any and that seems really clear to me..khai and zihui came from same sec sch and live around same area and speak the same language..haiz..calvin with wenhui, jasmine wit yijia..waimeng wit jian ming..Dgdd wit Dgdd..ect ect..me?i kinda think i am force fitting myself..though it would be different now in poly, yups its different..more 'open' which also means more scary..sometimes i just want to find a cave and hide inside??

was felling bad enough myself, alot of things going in my mind, but like always tries to push my mood up and better, then one seems to feel worst then me but well lets say he made it worst. It has been in my mind for very very long that i really don wan any of that..to think all of them treat u this well cause they like u? woo you? seem so unreal. I value everyone i treasure themand i rather want to be treated nice by everyone then some treating very well while others should not. My life is in such tragety but yet wat i can only do is to continue smiling to make others day and physco myself to believe wat i should believe..push on audrey as u are mostly on your own

arrgh..

after my last post tt few days i cried myself to sleep and awaking to recall wat happen..the words are still fresh in my heat revolving around and around..ahhh.... well monday acturaly gotta go for a job interview..but cause consult cher about work till too late didnt when..go down club..waited for them to come down go concert together later..also got to tried some donught i nv tried be4!!ha..reach concert late..then as always tried to cut to the front..yeah got seat..the show was quite nice..atmosphere very gd..after concert go FC4 eat then chiong home le..

tues:
lesson 830-1230..but i also stayed ask work..then lunch at Fc3..after tt club no1 so i when home to do REAL work..did quite alot..and i hope i keep this going..ha oh!!i when running too u know..SHOCKING yeah? ha..i pushed myself alittle too far and till now i also feel the cramp of the mucles..aww..

wed:
lesson even more lol from 8-9plus onli...acturally less then tt cause we start late..stayed in sch for brunch..then when to dance club to do my assignments..after tt around2 go down to SD continue my other work..can say got do..yet nv do..cause i juz found out i did it wrongly today..my god..luckly i have not finish it..acturally meet wz they all eat..but remember it will be too late..so asked shun fa and wei zhuang to go and eat wit me..we have to wait for wai meng to come back and claim his bag..

Today:
lesson at 9 falliing asleep..ha nearly couldnt wake up in the morning..half way when i was quite awake give us break..heng ar..then lectur continue..suddenly 'boom!' no more electricity..lol..the whole builing black out..!!cool...then stop lessons..we were hoping it will last longer so can cancle 3Dmaya lessons..ha but today 3D lesson also end early and no marketing lessons..whoo!! so can go home le..ha was acturally thinking if i should go club anot..bt didt when down..regret ar..clement they all came down and xm wanna help me take thing home..haiz..see yar...then go home i aslo abit slack today..hee..gulity...

for now i wanna go watch some stuff..laters......

wat to say...i am torned apart by the horrid words..to think thats how you persive one of your dearest ppl around you..i cannot imagine how things has changed..from how we spend our nights together talking in the same bed to now not even facing one another for a hour.. now i know how you see me..and now i really feel..i cannot discribe how i feel at all..as tear rolled unconrtoallble down my eyes,the roll of tissue jus getting lesser..pulled myself up and yet break down again and again..y is it everything i do seems to be a sin a wrong a nuciences??!! don you guys trust me at all in wat i am doing? yeah maybe i cant be trusted..seems it has haven been like this since forever..and it will juz keep on rolling..bigger and bigger..yeah if u think tts so i can live like wat u say,don try me..i hav very short temper wit you and only you!

-from the little 'devil'sister

tied up

yeah..afew days witout post..means busy..but not really busy lar..cause i have been doing nothing? i really dunno how to deal wit my work here..dunno how to continue or in a sense start..and i got lyk 1half week more to finish super lots of things..i dunno how audrey gonna do it but she have to..yups..besides this difficult BDS assignment..there are like 4more projects including my gems and a english test for editing..my gosh..i will faint..but must keep it going...sleeping in class seems to carry on like a habit..must kick it off ar...!!

Gotten a new phone last week i think..from kor kor..of cause wit conditions lar..he wont be tt nice juz give me free phone de..but nvm lor..its the 1st time i used a pohone wit a mutlimedia function since half a year or one year after i broke my LCD screen of the previous phone..so yar..ha still trying to figure how to use it..and so happily taking pics?well not really lar..okok onli..


from clockwise: Ah huat,mummy[yijia],ME!!,Daddy[jas]..the pic is bad..but tts the best i can do for my short hands..haha

CADC intrim juz finished..think the sesional coming up soon..ha and everything will be repreated again..whoots..this year..hmm might not be able to fit tt in wit everyone like the pass as i am not involved in FO and not gonna be MC anymore..still will go down lar..to visit visit juz for the friends and ppl down dere..More of it will be at SD cause all i need to do is to sit in the room tts it..ha easy job..nvm..about intrim..when for 3 of its event out of 5..but yeah its ok lor..could be very much better..project so sayang,have gd location but nv make use..wealfare has a few fun games which i think sch will be a better location? debate the chess one was good..yar tis are the appiterzers..the bigger ones are coming up..muhahaha..

Oh yar..not forgetting my cadc family..mummy and daddy juz added a new brother for me..and to think he orginally was to become my son..lol..dere.at the tag board u can see his name is AH huat..ha..our family rich le..so name him tt..lame..but i feel better these days as i know a few more year ones in cadc..at least they also know me..ha HAPPIES!!but hmm..still feeling the preasure from alot of directions..work..perceptions..sometimes tt ppl around me..stop giving me tt kinda look..maybe i am thinking too much and over stressing?? i really wanna go and play!!!!

the year ahead..

the 1st week of sch juz ended...now going to the 2nd week and i don think it will get any better. 1st week's timtable is killing us...as for now i think we should really start to treasure out time..don stay back for no reason..go home sleep better...ha cause i ave been sleeping in class this week...especiall thursday and friday...the 1st day of sch we did a so called onyx outing? but it didnt turn out right...but its ok..we will do better next time..thanks for the support from the rest..i will say i nearly cried and wanted to walk out..but thankfully i didnt...SMILES hees. 2nd day ended 12..don remember wat did i do le..wed after lessons when to sac...fel super lost left out or things like tt...for 3hrs down dere i dunno wat to do..its not like when i am in mc..maybe being mc go things to do then different..? but well then i when home...thurs is the longest day..scary and i am touched that u guys waited for me..thanks and i am sorry to make u all wait...really sorrie..friday was sleeping at nearly every class..cannot tahan..but friday wore very nice..if i can say so myself..i loved it..juz like wat i imagined..!!then when out to watch movie..till quite late..at morning meet prawny janey..ha then when to project com event..then dinner at pepper lunch..ha twist!!yeah..visited perlini to see wat prducts they have..but haiyo...not tt attractive to me ba? the type of earings i want also don have...bleah..then i think buy ring best? but then buy ring abit weird ar..then we will see lar..hope the designs change again?ha...takecare ppl..though year coming..going to have big big projects for me and i scared sia...ha caoz..

F.O

yoyo..school has started..how is it for everyone??ha..been going to the beach the last wk..dunno if i said be4..when ECP 3 times and Sentosa...its the post camp thing lar..oh..one of the ecp is a FOP thing..they when dere to build sandcascle..very nice lor..amazed..hmm…it kind of scared me that now its almost all guys around me…ha…but almost all of them are very nice people. Don’t see the DGDD’s always face the computer and play games and games, very quiet…or seen being too despo but they are really sweet when u get to know them..!!1st is “da shu”...ha...he has his very own fan club now…and very lame n crazy...always don’t mind being the clown to make people smile...and well we are in quite the same boat for some stuff…then is clement…one who says jokes and doesn’t laugh at all…There is Shi Xiang my partner for GL…there is also Xue Ming who really helped me quite a lot…mama…really thanks to both of them...oh!! not forgetting Hammeed and Yong Sheng…ha...albert and robin are also people that I just knew from the camp...well i will start from the camp?ha


ONYX!!

yups..1st day morning gathered everyone..played a few games and then they splited group..they are allowed to choose their own GL's..lol rite?ha then my group ONYX is formed..ha but the one whole day they seems abit low lar..tired maybe??ha eveyone in my group has a nick name lor..and its very cute..and thanks to my dear vanvan being our shim..ha very funnie..




but second day was much better..morning played caption ball and the ballon game...then alot of other stuff...also gave them some ice breaker games and back to sch...wha reach school they super high lor..drank too much "k" high till i scared u know..even the most simple game like big fish and small fish they also laugh like xiao..then ppl keep coming to my group to do forfit..then my group ppl ask them to do super weird things..ha..then was the night walk which is scary really..ha and funnie too..ha mama knows..lol.. 3rd day wasnt much..was testi writing..and big grop photo taking...and meal together..some when pool i when home to do other things..


photo wit roro...robin's soft toy


then the next day is the FOP straight away..monday..i dunno if i am needed dere..but i helped..1st day stun to see sui ping in the video..2nd day was more fun..me and hui hui incharge on the turtle turtle jump station..the loser get drawn by the winner instead of water thrown..cause a group is dere and no challenger so i took 4lives and 4more robin take..i go 1st..and killed 6of their man be4 diying..as in drawn 4 times..but lol robin lose the game...bleah...but it was fun..ha..



the 3rd day was to go ecp build sandcatle..acturally wanted to rolerbalde tt day btu cause need to bring alot of things back..so didn..the next day when back to ecp epcially to rollerblade and cycle..waited for zihui and khai for 1hr?yar..nvm lar..keep blading into the bushes..bleah..dunno how to stop..but then we play till half rain...lol i blade in the rain back to burger king..all wet..ha funnie..after tt we when back to sch..for wat i not sure le..

the following day friday i when dental and down to sch play wit year 1..then go meet wei zong they all to go sentosa..rain too..sadded..and they say my fault..bleah..emo talk wit the guys and played frizbi..sat hide at home...sunday when ecp again for kayaking and bladeing..this time more succesful as the wether is real good!!after dinner zhao le..cause got sch next day all at 8somemore..



monday 1st day of sch also did wanted to meet up lar..but then hor..hmm..nvm will be better next time..ha..so because of all this audrey got more broke..ha..looking forward to this friday!!

QUIZ CRAZY...!!

juz came back from east coast juz now...ha..quite fun lar..but did do anything much dere..plus not feeling tt well lar...now eat and cough feel like vomiting sometimes..ha..so decided to go back tml to cycle or blade...don care if fall..the holiday is fast finishing..then seriously thinking nv really relaxed..ha..read clem's blog..ha and from there i took a quiz then another and another and alot lor..ha...see all the results..!!ha dunno if its true..u guys judge lor..?ha and then tell me k??thanks!!










lol...very kua jang sia....ha...
think this is my love profile??forget liao did alot i tell u..not all here...

You Would Do Most Things For Love

You are willing to go pretty far for love - but not far enough to compromise your core values. Love is a priority for you, and you'll go further than most people to hold on to someone you love. But killing for love? Or even taking a bullet? Probably out of the question. No matter what, you love yourself the most!

Would You Do Anything For Love?

what type of artist am i...

You Should Be Fashion Designer

Although you're offbeat and artistic, you have a good eye for trends You can figure out new incredible clothes to create... that will sell well!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

what is my element...

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

what is my Temperament...i dunno wat tt..

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

How daring am i..

You Are Bold And Brave

But daring? Not usually? You tend to like to make calculated risks. So while you may not be base jumping any time soon... You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!

How Daring Are You?

how dirty am i...see i am clean ok...bleah!!

Your Mind is PG-13 Rated

Your mind is definitely a little dirty. You're naughty, but not trashy. You don't shy away from a dirty joke, and you're clearly not a prude.

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

what is my love type..

Your Love Type: ENFP

The Inspirer In love, you are passionate and eager to develop a strong bond. For you, sex should be playful, creative, and affectionate. Overall, you are perceptive and bring out the best in your partner. However, you tend to hold on to bad relationships after they've turned bad. Best matches: INTJ and INFJ

What's Your Love Type?

You Are The Star

You represent the ultimate in truth and purity. Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others. You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love. You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal. Your fortune: Your future is looking brighter by the day. The near future will be a time of both hope and healing. Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen. Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!

What Tarot Card Are You?

ha see so many thingy...lol

ahhh.....

yeah yeah....as u can see i think my last post is way way ages ago??yar u guessed it..very busy.....this few weeks plenty had happen for me..today morning toto got briefing for FOP..but didnt..so stay back and help out and do gems for my friends...plus today cadc camp finish so tot to wait for them to come back..but well to tell u the truth i rather not wait..cause when i see them back wit all the campers..the new faces and stuff like tt..i feel even more leftout..like all my friend had gone..lost the time to be wit waimeng jasmine they all..haiz..then was abit emo..though kept on smiling..but the thoughts keep flahing through my head..after tt was thinking of going home but when to chinatown wit the rest to get thier stuff..well think i feel better when he is not dere..if he dere ar..wha always look at me like wat sia..i feel like a suspect..asking me to watch out..and like in a sense making use of me? i dunno y maybe u always jump into conculsion? yeah u know at u are doing..but others dunno..and i kninda feel u nv convay the msg well to them..and a little bit of the way thigs is going is very wrong..y don ask??nvm..the rest of the guys was very nice..dunno wat they think of me..but u guys were great..hope i am k and not tt bad too..ha..thanks xueming for helping me hold my stuff..but i dunno y u so lol go and notice me like tt!! is u ditry minded lor..not me..bleah!!and i dunno y tt yongsheng..wha..know the water very ex nv tell me till i go and order tt time then know...sobs..

2more days to SD camp.hope REALLY HOPE it will go well..as far as i see..the camp theme is tied really well good job ppl..but the others is not tt well at all..tt time briefing when we going to start singing the 25th song i was still thnking tt we really shouldent do tt yet in front of the campers...arrgh...embaresmem..after reading some stuff ha i gotta admit i agree wit wat he says..all talk and not tt much actions? yeah i also know how to talk..but as how everthing is going we cant do much but jus try to make things simple?and powerful..don need to fancy already..

my teeth is going on quite smoothly..got all the braces on..but haven pluck 2 teeth..dunno y i brush go blood at times..wha..sacry lor..somethings teeth too pain till cant eat tt well at all..and the brakets keep cutting my mouth..pain very pain i tell u..through these days..started to tak more wit him..ha..he quite lol at times really..but i dunno if he is still feeling he way he did be4..but i kinda don think so..i really dunno..and cause the other is also abit waiting for my answer..the though of juz forget the who issuse came to me..its like if i don agree to any..i can treat every guy the same way and they can treat me the same way rites??ha.. ohoh!!be4 i when china town say weesoon and weizhong..wha they say i not girl..nvm we brother!!lol as man..and today yuanliang saw a picture of mine..everyone says it dosent look like me..!!they don believe its me..well now i will tell u audrey has alot of image..dere is even the extreams ends of being a tomboi[man] to being very vainty[girly]ha..u all nv see be4 onli...anyways..really tired le..nites...tak care ppl...

messed upped......

yoyo yeah..happir wo...i have been really busy and tired these days..yar cause of the work and dental..lol..today dental suddenly i got my braces tied on the upper..i was abit of unprepared..yar and today was mu LAST day of work...!!haha then i very slack lor..did 5surveyes onli..ha so earn arounf 40 today..haa..but eat alot..and we sold some book a house gave us..wha like 2bucks only..so we used it to eat..yar..ha..then suddenly..i got a slot tml to pluck teeth..so i must try to push it in tml..yar i don wanna hold back the dental things anymore..others can hold on..yar..so i tot to do dental in the morning..then go camp..then go work..all the way till11pm..wha..will die lor..killing my self..ha but heng chris help me found replacement!!!yeah love u soo much yar..!ha and thanks to sean yar to replace me..thanks thanks..ha then tml will be less though on me le..but tml need to wake at 5am like tt to give my aunt a wake uo call to go dental wit me..yar got to go off now..yar tata..oh! one last thing...MY TEETHS AND MOUTH HURTS!! arrGGGHHH!!!!!!! tata.....

busy............busy

lol...ok i dunno who is this zaff person..but if jayne were to be here..she will say the same thing...Audrey!!please update..!!haa...so u see soo long nv update u an guess the reason ba..too busy?ha..been busy getting over my obssion wit FO..trying to let go and help in ways i can..yar..now i plan to go back CADC as MIU..mobile intensive unit..haa cool name huh??wha..but MIU sadded lor...must stay all the way at st john..it like 6days long!!gosh!!i am not a no.1 fan of st john i tell u..kinda dislike it very much..i dunno how i gonna survive tt..sometimes thinkin about it makes me wanna..back out??i am scared of st john!! but cannot let my friends down!!ha anyways thinking of st john makes me think of jim..ha my SA..but sad to say we are not tt close now..very saddening to me..but we'll see the light i believe..believeing is all i can do now for him i think..yar..then cause i nv be PC also quite good ba..cause i also can go SD camp and help out in both..so is like something good out from the bad..yes!look on the bright side?haa..yar ha but i know where ever i go i will do watever i can to help..yups!but remember to pace out..don chiong till break down..yar applies too everyone k?yups..

well alot of things happen to me this few weeks..yar one thing is maybe some ppl when MIA liao..then some ppl tt i don know become very good close to me..yar like 180 changes around me..lost lost..and i dunno wat to believe in or trust in..i can say i lost my navagation since the FO thing ba? yar..and i know my friends..yet i found out tt i don know all of them well..y audrey? i realised tt u have become so..sooOOoo..robotict? ahh...yups..must melt the ice ice inside..hmm yar and i can tell u i knida pissed wit my boss now..yar the survyer one..always late and stuff..arrgh..don have alot of responsibility u know..arrgh..and my black working shoe i think rotten liao..ha got hole here and dere since the last time i wore it..ohoh..need to spend to buy??haiz..yar..and very very tired this few days..i don have alot of idea y..but juz tired...oh!! yesterday i remember dreaming about surveyer sia!!ha..and the other one i cant really remember..lols..



yar today i took day off from work to meet doreen and rx out..acturally going for another job interview..but didnt cause rx not feeling well..ha and wang jia came to have lunch wit us..yups..then after lunch he go gay wit dunno who?yar tts wat rx say lar..ha..yar we when down to heren..yet agains..i have been going down dere everyweek like tt...haa..acturally say wanna go see movie or go vivo??ha..yar..but nopes...when heren walk walk..yar..cause i very long nv dress up i kinad played alittle tiday and tried a dress i nv wore be4..yar and i think i spoil my heels..sadded..lol..dunno how i do it one winner lar..yar..and we walk whole day i tell u..walk walk and then go chinatown wit doreen to take keys...acturally wanna go central..?then didnt..cause we lazy and tired...take a few more mins..i fell asleep..yar very tired lar..they say i sleep till..i forgot wat is the term used..ha then we when to bpp also..ha not home leh!!ha..yar the shoes i acturally saw to replace the working one is sold out liao..doubble sadded..ha..yar nvm..then we when to tak bus...ha and i saw xie hui!!gosh!i tot wat i do sia y one ganster or 'bad looking' guy stop me! shocked..then look at him longer then realised he is xie hui!!haa..now he at lasell not nafa..not bad..or maybe i remember wrong?dunno lar..then at the bus i think got 3 guys down der insulting us? or making fun of us..at 1st i don really realise till they alight..he say 3 ugly girls...i was like WAT THE...as if we did anything to them??and they look so darn underage..follow ppl smoke..and act cool..vomit blood sia..disgusting...eeks..and he forgot his wallet..haa lol..we very nice one..take to the bus driver..yar be4 tt we check to see if its his also lar..got his photo i think..ha..but no e-link card..got one POSB card..atm leh..and he like tt throw..haiyo..ppl this days so weird..haa..

well tml i hack hack think mia from work..hees..yar tml going to class outing!!yeah!!haa..tata!!time to rest abit le hee..take cares ppl!!

HELLO~~~!!

ha..hi ppl!!been quite busy this few days..ha not about work..but maybe still pondering wit the FO things and yar going out...haha..ok lets trace back to last sat! yup morning work up early cause meeting benjamin [maybe i spell wrong again??] to go sentosa see the flower thingy..i was early cause estmiate wrong time..then my teeth super pain from the rubberbands..arggh...i tried to eat beenhoon suop also abit difficult...curentlly my throat is hurnting like crazy cause of the food stuff...haiz...haa..must ENDURE!!whoots..ha then we go vivo find sky train..lol i nv took be4..but he haven eat so when eat and walk abit 1st..then continue hunting for the train..lol its juz beside the foodcourt and we walked in circles...abit silly..nvm..but saw alot of pets..!!ha very cute...thailand also saw alot..!ha... ok so we boarede the sky train..and he cannot tap his card..ha lol..we also not tt sure where to stop...then abit anyhow stop lar...luckly is correct...haa..yar and the waterfeature is very nice down dere...as for the flowers? hmm okok lor...but i saw a very beautiful and intresting one..i called it the fireworks flower, cause it really looks like it...see


the FIREWORKS flower...hees


BIG BIG sea turttles!!(0_0)


Smiles...both eating loli..how to smile u tell me.......

yar then we wander around sentosa..not on a spending motive..wha abit sadded..cant do much dere..saw and got to know wat is car lift..ha but didnt go..then when to alot of park's enterences but nv entered..at underwater world there saw the gaint turtles ha so ENORMOUS sia..also walked erm i dunno wat lar..haha juz wanderers..Oh! and took cable car back to vivo...it has been like ages since i last took it u know!!ha..and yups wander around vivo too...saw the graffit artist works in an intresting shop..then there are nice works there lar..juz tt i cannot remember them..lol..yar..then the heart pain dinner..which i eat till very xing ku...but best is the ice cream i think...my teeth not pain..ha..then i think i got abit of "zi yei bing" aiyah benj also have..ha keep talking about sch things..i keep talking about CA things..cause its really still messing through my mind...Arrgh...yups..ha then saw some intresting characters at vivo also..very cute hors?



then home it was!..the next day suppose to meet my 'family' go vist the houses for red packet...then jas sick..we wanna visit her..but she nv pick up phone..yijai last min need to help her mum at her shop...in the end was me and the two guys...wha..and my breakfast i eat mc chicken..take ages to eat it...OMG..big diff from my ususal time..ha...we all quite ressless lar..the from wenhui's house when calv's..at calvin house they let me watch m18 show..haha later jas kill u all ar...haa...movie tittle Crank..yar ok lor can watch lar..ha then i thought dinner was to be at my grandmas house..and was preaparing to leave when the info i get i wrong..GOSH....i always get the wrong info de sia..sadded..and i need to rush down to my daddy's working place..haiz..i didnt pourposally wanted to be late..but yar partly my fault by not getting my info right..haiz..scolding in the end lor..and the dinner was a toture to my mouth and teeth..OUCH!!...

And now coming to today..yups i wore my boots tt i purchased in thai for the 1st time..lol...abit scared tt its Too OVER..ha but the monent i spet out i see other ppl wearing boots too...haha heng..but not as high cut as mine lar..ha..then i meet hui hui and khai..go walk walk..hui hui wanna go get her black heels..as for khai..alot of things lar..cause she go voucher allover her..haa..and i on a DON NOT SHOP mode...haa..we took puri kura also..wah..then face white as my cloths lar..haa..and i got my hand on my tusbasan at last...!!ha..but sobs..the box abit damaged...waaaa...cry sia..i wan nice nice sia..nvm..borrowed a book to get myself started to read and at least change my focuse..i have alot of thing to do..but i am not doing...how??haa...yup..after tt acturally plan to go sch pass and put stuff..didn when in the end..instead when city hall to returl the top to ben..had dinner wit khai and benj..then walk walk abit more for kahi to find her cap..found one! but..cannot use the voucher..awww..so after a few more shops around 9pm left for home...when i wanna tap card on bus i could not find my wallet at ALL...GOODNESS..in an instant i figure it will be at BK i chiong down the bus..meet benj and he when back wit me to buger king where we had dinner wit me..HENG AR!!! my wallet was really there...SMILES...yeah!! found it found it..!!all the important things is inside u know...yar then finally can take bus peacefully home..haa..and benj says he is freezing in the bus he took home...lol..got become ICE??ha..ok i am writting it down all very shorttened..cause i need to get some rest..tml going an interview..see if it will work lor..need $$...the world is tt pratical now...sobs..haha..take care ppl!!

straightened!

wha..my teeth feels weird...today acturally say going to pluck teeth..but haa..nv pluck..juz place in the rubber bands...ha and quite unconfortable lor..then ben ha very free sia..pei me go dental..then go bugis to do my duty..he brought me food too..but difficult to eat lor..haa..do duty till 9plus oh sugar..i forgot to see finish the displays...then tml going to see the flower thingy in sentosa i think..dunno will be better then last year anot..last year seen be4..hmm..so far for my survayer things also got some problem...sugar i really need money liao..cause my braces treatment i think my father cannot affort...so i need need lobang...i need to earn 2thousand plus for total treatment..but not on shot pay lar...now need 700 1st...then need to save for next year...juz now my dad also say me don spend so much le..he cannot pay for us..haiz..he nv force me to go work for my expensses next year..but i can realy feel his preasure..i wanna help lighten.

hmm...as for the FO..yeah! my thoughts are kinda straightened le!!hurray...yups i was contredicting myself yesterday..cause i cannot let go..and wat my sis told me was very right...'na de qi, yao fang de xia' and its like i have been messing around wit this type of things for 2-3 years le...[maybe except for campfire..]its time to change and do other things lar..no point keep didnt the same things..yes its different as the ppl u work wit is always different..bu the parretn and structure of the camp is basically the same...not saying tt i cannot do at all lar..juz must try to let go and try other stuff...

and yar its at this type of time i remember y i respect my sister..she is experienced and knowledagable..and always show me another way to think my thoughts...and she told me that TIME IS EQUALS TO THE ANOUMT OF COMMIMITMENT!! full comiment MEANS die die also go down...cause i need to work to self stupport and maybe pay my dental treatment..i can only give tt amount of commitment, and they don wan my that amount only, therefore they cannot want me, not tt i don want to do its more like they don want the audrey who cannot give the time to do this camp..Passion is one thing..but wit passion and no time also cannot do..so if ppl who are doing it..think about it lor.. then i think my fellow ex PCs will do a nice finish one, I HAVE FAITH IN U..GO GO GO..i can also help if u need..REALLY!!!...i think thats the best i can do for u all..today jakei told me to pass my things to august i feel gulity lor..that august have to take up this things wit all tt she have already...hmm i will help her more maybe...but now i trying to change my focuse..but dunno where to change it too..so keep stoning myself 1st..watch alot of inuyasha...hee hee..my eyes super pain also le...cause i think i over wear contacts in my thai trip..so think 1 week cant wear contacts...haa...all this FO i want to do i want to do..i nv considered much in if i can do it anot...[haiz audrey always nv thinks much when she is doing something...only think after the thing is done..haa] but juz now i saw a songal which i think is really meaningful.. "its Acutrally not can or cannot do, its if u dare to do." i kinda thinks it true..so be bold STUND ans STUND THEM in a GOOD way..k??haha nvm..i go shower and watch vcd le..ha tat ppl..Think for urself k? take care really and good luck!!

Struggling...............

OHHHHH......guess wat big thing i did today?? well after returning from the tip yesterday night while i sleeping i realised i am screaming and shouting in my sleep lar...very the scary sia stress till like tt...in the moring i toked abit to my mum..and ask her views on my camp sitiuation and her answer was super clear and direct..."if u don have the time, then don do..."whao! englitened..so with tt mind i think and think on bus..reach sch talked to wai meng and jian ming...see if they cant take over my job as campfie IC...then i even more feel cannot tahan..therefore i told jim i cannot continue..yups i told him i decide to be out of the Planning com..1stly cause i am stressed till dunno like wat now..cause of the Job and camp thing..the job to tahan my next years spendings for assignments...2ndly cause i need to take up the job i cannot come down everyday 9am to 9pm..well tts the main points liao...and he says alot till i blur one the things..and well he kinda want speak for me..which i don aggre of lar...he did mentioned tt since i cannot make it for 9 to 9 everyday then no point continue as he expects the PCs to do so..dosent matter if i can finish my work or not cause he believes tt the 9-9thing helps to bond the PCs together..then he says i have not experiences the fun they have at all cause i no there...but i will dare to say i felt it..but only on one day..last friday i think..like for onces when i look into their faces they seem to trust me and not have tt doupting face..espically when i talk to janet and guan jie..we can talk!!ha so feeling very great tt day..but then sat and the rest was..not reall lar..haiz...so there u have it..audrey has lighten her load...well..in a sense yes..i don have the PC name on me anymore..but i want to continuse doing the things tt i am doing so far..like the campfire..the tresure hunt..its like my unborn baby tt feeling and i wan to see it complete...then how?so i offer it as a favour to them tt i will complete it..and like i am also not asured tt my help would be of use..cause i not PC not BIG anymore..ha..like if i finish my campfire it may not even be approved...yar..acturally i feel tt this way would be for the better..as it will be fair to the rest of the ppl who came everyday 9-9pm..the amount of time they put in..but when i was addresing to the whole PC who were there..the thing tt guan jie told me make me think alot...since i am continuing the campfire..and the tresure hunt..wats the difference as being a PC excpet being in the song sesion...well kinda true u know...n the thing is i WILL come for the song sesion and i WILL want to learn the songs...then tt means its even more STUPID of me to not be a PC? GOSH!!! i am so confused now...but thinking of it tell me tt maybe not all of them mind me not turnning up everyday..to think it at a brighter side..maybe they understands my sistustion??!! don mind me not coming everyday but i am offering my help!!?? [if its true then i will be so darn happie and delighted sia...] Then its the 1st time i really interacted wit the QMs while we do the fire wood thingy..and i know them abit better..its like..i feel tt acturally u don need to be there 9-9 to be bonded wit them lor..its see how much we interact..cause within tt few mins i see more of wei yi character..and elsons too..cause most of the time they are quite reserved..

wha..all this defeats the pourpose of me making my decision like tt leh...by right like what clement says..i should not regreat it..since i already decided..but...AHHHHH......i wanna stranggle myself...then cause i didnt really think too much wat will be effected when i make this desision..now i found out tt its quite a big thing lor..cause the princess will be lost..and i hear i will be telematech GA..so will be gone...then cause my posotion is a new one tt many ppl fought for me..after i realised the campfire thing i feel like theres a smack on my face...like..wha!! i will be letting down alot of ppl tt i don want to let down...ppl like my Ah gong, the 1st person tt i know in CADC and who is VERY on the same frequency as me..Shao kai..though i migh have some conflicts wit him at times but i respect him for his abilities ..most importaintlly he is the one who really made me rebelieve in CADC again and again..[twice u know...]haiz..they believed in me..and i believed in myself..but i am sadded tt cause the untold expectiontins from the camp cheif made the sitiustion into this now..Seriously i should not compare myself to others now..though at times i do..i will always think like wat wai meng says there are also ppl who cannot give 9-9 inside the PCs so theres no need to go for me...i really dunno really confused now...suppose to be more qing song de rites??haa...yar wat benjemin says is true and i understands...jim is the camp chief and sometimes he have to do wat he have to do, whichs not allow me to continue and consider the view of the other PCs, thier wealfare...but i really want to ask all the PCs if they understand my sistuation and if they would allow me to do that..cause so far everything is hear from jim..and like i need to interprate wat he is telling me..and think there is plenty of misinterprations...i hope to hear form the PCs themselves..cause i believe they can see i am trying, maybe its wat i hope it is lar...i jus know i have the passion to do, i want to do..not as to forfuill the responsibility anymore..yes i still have strong determination to do my campfire and treasure hunt..i know tt i can acomplish and do quite alot there, and ha..seriously speaking i kinda like the songs "only when u know them tt is....." but juz because of the time factor and then let everything off..i am not allowed HA HA...stupid audrey...ha ahgong also agrees...dies...

haiz...tml will go dental agains..and bye bye to two teeths...will miss u all..haa...i scared will be very pain sia..and since i already out i wont have to saty long dere...after tt go help help the grad show maybe...see hows the dental 1st lor...hees.......scary....well then..when i arrange the photos from the trip then i blog about it lor..haha...been writting alot of words and thoughts this few days..cause alot of things going on my mind..ha think when u all read it u all can so called feel the messyness rites??ha all this is really wat i think and feel now..wats dere to hide rites?ha..well gtg...tata...so tired...hees...take cares ppl!!!

Ahhh....

hee hee...i am at airport now....juz check in and going to eat breakfast...whoots!!but...hee i for got to reply benj msg..cause i wake up last in the moring..then chiong out le..i also nv bring phone...at home..so u all wanna leave any sms also can..don worry tt it will case more ex...wanted to msn tell him..e-buddy don allow msn to offline ppl...haha and worst of all i cant remember ur e-mail...[wat a bad friend...] will return at night of 21st i think...if can tahan then go down club k? Thanks for ppl who woshed me happie new year..and tt wish me safe trip...gtg...go eat...haha tata...!!love u all lots...i dunno dere got wat...will see if i can buy anything lar...no $$ of my own..but then later i buy liao no1 wants also sad....like tt study trip things all still at my home....ha bye ppl!!!

Happie NEW YEAR

HI there ppl!! 1st of all i wanna wish everyone a Happie new year!!! yeah yeah...but then hor..haiz..sad sad...wont be able to ebrate much lar..going over seas in a few more hours..like 3hrs?haha...leaving at 4plus am in the morning...yeasterday after CADC when home do to some tresure hunt thingy..wanna do some so tt i can leave it to them to do on thursday...at least "jiao dain" abit...and was suppose to help marilyn they all to find telematch songs...wha.mutiply trick me lar...wates hours listening to alot of quite crappy songs...those can fall alslepp one...ha...at last found one quite suitable the song..but at the back got techno...think can cut off lar..but i not expert so abit abit here and dere...not joined properly...by the time i do going to ok like tt its already 3-4am le...then need to reach sch at 9am mah...7am must wake up..i don think i can wake lor...so asked benj to call me wake up as he is still online...ha..in the end all thanks to him ha ha i was not late..cause i nv sleep at all...he pei wo talk whole night...ha thanks ar..really...u are the 1st ever person who did tt..haha and this is the 3rd ir 4th time in my life tt i did not sleep a wink at all through the night..haha...when taking bus to sch i missed my stop tt i always alighted..heng stop at clemiti in time..ha..then reach sch not late lar...ha..passed my stuff to liang liang..and waited waited for the newly up dated shedue...haiz...sun got raccky...SUGAR...i don know how now lar..but i don wan to think tt far...throught the talk wit benj i found a route to walk..but i dunno if i want to choose tt..if i did then its like wasted efforts for me...hai hai...leave sch 1030...take bus home..but cause i very sleepy i missed 2 bused of 184...wha...2bus leh...want to die sia...i feel like calling kor kor to drive me home..haha..but got on at last lar..heng...hee..reach home smack!!sleep..hees..oh and give afternoon wake up call..had lunch and then sleep wake up have dinner...hees..piggy...tis year PIG year mah..ha nvm rites?muhahaha... so here i am now...still doing some treasure hunt things..and typing in my thoughts...

yeaterday [friday lar] stayed till late in sch wit them...jim had a talk wit me..long but also not tt long...yups we have distanced...not because of FO...seriously i think even from shoe design we have been abit losing contact le...dont u realise? yar..then was saying tt i am like sui ping...wants to be free...yar yar watever..i am not saying tt i don feel this way at all lar..the though did pass my mind..but i am not and its not the same..a want and a need..if i was the same then i think u wont see me tt much as u are seeing me now...cause i would want to work for a camera DSLR a wacom and a sewing maching...and all this 3 things contribute for my sch work as well..ok maybe sewing maching not tt much..but i am not doing that..u get the diff?? my main point is tt i am will to spend less but more useful time then spenind whole day and not knowing wat to do there, in a harsher tone is...i am a VERY busy person, i don wan to wate my time not doing things tt is all in my list..cause i got too much to complete..like lay yan, she come down when ther is song sesion abit sme logic lar..juz tt i have a PC name to hold lar...ok its very very heavy...ha... then the issue of me juz doning mine and splitting it very obviouslly is cause i cant help ppl if i can even finish the things i suppose to do...And if i don remember wrongly i think he mentioned tt i was difficult to talk to now a days?? i dunno...maybe its all because of these external and internal factors that made me into how i tal and act now..ha benj was..i think kinda shock and wander how i tahan all this...haha..Yes i am From CADC, but i am also SD. Though i have taken up job as A PC in CADC, i also offered my help in SD. Offered u know...not become a PC dere...so is like doing more for CA le lar..then i already missed alot of things they ar doing already, so i will need to balance it out once in a while...out of my 7days of a week..3days to work... some half of the 3days to CA, the rest of the 4days also to CA, but might have dental and small events. I don see myself "dui bu qi-ing" my role, juz tt if u compare me with ppl like jasmine i send less time lor...if u compare me wit sui ping i am not tt "chan" lar..its how u see it...the way i see it is thats the best i can offer already...

Anyway...going off to thailand wit my family 3more hours later...better catch some rest 1st..i haven pack finish my things..and the stupid thing is i brought work along wit me...reports and song book..ha..mission...at least remember the chinese words for the songs?ha..wander wat i will see there...ha i see my dad pack so nice cloths dere..ha shirt sia...and my sis bring nice short and stuff...i need to change some cloths i bringing le..haa...cannot bring all the camp cloths...And to peng yu wz clem..haha thanks ar...ha but the the person wont write who he is le...i will never know who tt a s s person is...sadded lor..haa...ok well take care ppl!!see ya soon...hope u get enough hong bao this year...i wont have alot...can go ur house take?? i promise to be guai??lol...haha hope i can hmm..relax abit wit my family this time...our very 1st overseas trip as a family..beautiful beaches...here i come!!! miss me!!~~~~wheee.........!!!!!!

Val Day!! [verge of breaking down]

hello people...been really really busy this 3 days..i am going mad..and i wanna give up..and who ever tt ANON person is FUCK off...[you ppl know i seldom use this words, so this is serious...don drive me to do thins tt no1 like] say watever you want as if i care...if u want to think in this way then carry onlor...i write so tt i can read it myself and clear some things up in my head..u have a problem..? somtimes however busy u are u still need time to reflect and think through..like i metioned i know i have not been doing, i admit ok not like i wanna hide about it.juz shoot if u got anything to say, any thing u by swang about me..people like u are juz living your life not learing anything.. anyways i am aready pissed and emo enough so i wont want to address to you anymore..

lets try to think of the happier times during this days...13th feb...got to do jae..in the morning meet wang jia do the design thing..after jae got dinner..so whole day nv when down for cadc..stoopid nv die be4 de waimeng pang sea me last min...thanks weesoon for taking time out...was funni rites?then wed whole day when for cadc..my 1st every one whoe day dere...well well ok..in the morninga abit shoot by jim and CCH...now i know the things i need to complete...fine..i nv say i wont do, juz tt i dunno wat i need to do...all their stoopid face starting to aggitate me...i need to catch up wit all their song practice..fine..i believe and i know i would be able to..as for the reports..HELLO.......u last min anyhow boomb as me tml give u meh...? insane...in the morning while everyone doing their reports, i asked xinyi to tell me ans teach me song tt they gone through...then after tt the song practise was long long long and long...but i learn all the songs and actions...juz tt not perfect lar..got small mistakes at times..and well chinese songs more error...then all this things tt i tried and watever all i get is an critict..fanstict...fine...when home qurraled and got scollded...redo the treasurehunt stuff..read through my old campfire things..till fall asleep on sofa...today morning drag myself out of bed to do housework for mummie...reach sch late see those faces again...smile audrey smile....instead of smiling i really feel like crying lor...in my head was like screaming shut up lar...i really feel like shouting out...but i know i will cry and break down over dere...hack everything and then i when for my dental...reach sch song secion again...

didnt eat my dinner...nv eat lunch..nv eat breakfast...only afew slips of water today...yups so audrey is trying to kill hersef her...who cares? yar i know u all done ALOT...how ALOT is it? the board also only 3 things completed...and one of it on the board is part of my work ok...yes its simple..so? i complete it ok...not as if if i don do those big big reports like outdoor and indoor means i not doing rites? and juz because i didnt really come for the 1st 2 day...my efforts on the 3day is soo useless then fine...try for wat? watever i do now will persive to u all as nothing..the mindsept is there already and its quite impossoble for u all to break through..yes i have work..yes i am going overseas...and YES i am doing everything that we wernt suppose to do, but have i not done my work?! have i not learnt the songs? did i throw all that i am part off to another person?if u tell me yes i am not doing anything. ok i wont carry on..and u will see wat is called not doing.. if it still insnt the case, then why all this unnessery faces and pressure? you all already said, we are a big family so we try to understand one another and help one another, y is it that i see ppl understanding her more then my sistuation...? i work to lighten my farther load for me, my future spending on assign will increase and my hrs are juz on sun mon and tues, no ful time and stuff, not tt i cannot take..is i don wan cause still got camp..if i really wanna become a surveyer i believe i can earn 100plus aday lar..comprimising is one thing,understanding is another since i cant reach the point of it, i expect u guys also unable to reach me...

as for val i acturally wanted to write about the ppl around me ad really thanks them..but maybe not in this post lar...its so harsh up dere..and after bursting part of my bubbles inside i really don think its apporated to thansk all the freind now..maybe next time.. audrey fainting out....................................................tata

choices and desicions...

hi ppl...my gosth i feel abit stressssing now...money matters..the needs and the wants...well all is want lar...and the wrk thingys... well to update 1st is my family is going over seas together, as in take plane tt kinda..for the 1st time every on the coming 18th feb till 21st..2nd thing is i have been working as an survayer like 2day? yups today is the 2nd day..working as one survey 1dollars..door to door survey about recycling..body aching liek madness lor...after swimming wit aiai on friday abit "swan" then wit all this walking arounds and stuff.wha.pain pain ar...after my 1st day i hit 52 surveys..then the incharge wanted to engage me and hui hui to become TL[team learders] which means we will be splitted..then will get more pay lar...20dollars basic pay? and if i nv hear wrongly he mentioned about earning more the 100 per day? attractive hor? but then i cannot do all and everything in it wat..i still got FO to do..acturally say tt we have flexable times one lor...now like wanna tie me down?? wang another one...acturally helping him in my own will..but now want my commitments..i haven finish the things tt i suppose to do for him..hees

ok i know i have been neglating about the FO things..but there is only one Audrey and she is a weakiling...gives in to alot of things...so offered help in alot of things thus getting her head into alot of commitments..i tried my best to appear but dosent make any differences wat..alot of information i REALLY dunno and nv heard be4, so u expect me to vomit out a huge sum of $ out? goodness i am suffuctating..i do think daddy will give me the $ how...and the up comming camp SHIRTS...they say got 5shirts isit? if one couse 10bucks i can die already...acturaly my family dose not know i am organising a camp..juggling of time and $ now all the preasure is on me..don come and tell me u mention to me about asking my parents be4..cause u didnt! In the meet up i remember very clearly my main questionto u is Wat do u or will u expect me to do for the camp for u..u did not gie me a clear answer and i made myself know tt i am not very hyped and 101%commited, i also asured u that thought i am not tt commited u can still count on me to being hype during the camp, well for the sake of the campers lar...i wont fail them but in a sense i think u fail urself failed us..when i inform u about my duties the face like change lar...but wat can i do..juz feel super gulity...hmm..i am starting to fee outcasted..or i casted myself out lar...everyone dose their stuff but i don have things to do..don even know y i am there..all the people i have to work wit are doing their own stuff..reading blogs..playing? oh well..wat to say?

Then audrey ar audrey...u so broke liao..u still got soo many wants tt u cannot resist...the DGDD ppl selling Tusabasan at a cheaper price and the box packiaging is super nice lor...box1 at 29.90 box 2 also same...but there is another cheaper version of box1...i check wit outside stores..they sell box 1 ans 2 each at 29.90 too..but the person tell me its part one only...erm so part 2 is? i am quite comfused lor...tml go ask peoperlly..haiz..and i still wanna get this and that...$$ not ebought...i really wanna erase my brain ar...so many things going on and on...i keep things about all this..but wats the use...think onli mah...

tml doing JAE shif..i dunno the attire for it leh..nv recieve the email..but going out later so lazy ba..wear smiformal all the way..hack..be4 tt meeing wang to show him shirts tt i have not completed much of...dots(O_O)....then after jae go see movie..wai meng pei me..and cause i treat him movie he has to treat me dinner...ha ha...hope i can juz have sometime to AUDREY and like juz rest and play? for now can only play while working...think and worry while sleeping...haiz..getting alot more white hair soon...i don need some1 to come up and say hey i help u complete everything..maybe juz ppl to consult to..if possable help me make myself think of solustions and make my own desisions?and i think i mention be4 tt motivates me?ha startting to see my own light le...ok..now i feel raf's tking to yourself at times dose works...juz tt ppl might feel u are insane...ha..well gtg take cares!! and to all new Olevels holders hope u get into the course u desire..and Go all out for the cousre u are sure u want to get in!!NO regrates!!

SMILES

yoyo!!1stly i must say below entry is written by wai meng himself..haha...yeah..today i anyhow draw finish the assignment le..tml going to hand up then whoots...!!but sadly is tt CADC FO need to start doing alot of things le?lol.....abit sian..i dunno y things becomed this way..but it is now...i dunno how u gonna save it...n i wont want to interfere...juz do wat i need to do...ppl who seems to be doing ALOT arnt doing anything at all then i do so much for wat...juz let those who wanna prove themselves or show they doing alot to do lor..tt was wat i thought from the start. Other then campfire, i don think i got things i need to prove..let others have then chance lor?hees...headache ar headache ar...

hmms...monday chiong project cause they say submission..but was extanded..lol..always tt lame de lor...then think wates the rest of the day in sch..helped BE ADD abit..ha count things onli ba?oh..and offer ideas..ha dunno if will use anot...tues i cannot remember do wat already..maybe watch VCD whole day?? hees finish watching xiao yu er le...wha..behind sad sad de lor...don want...i like the front better so funnie and sweet....acturally i really kinda understand y pei boon likes those ppl who makes him laugh..ha like sun...well its better to make urself laugh then cry wat rites?ha...wed got the briefing for JAE..ha also don really know wat is going to happen lar..anyhow wack...JAE reminds me about the experience i had last time...i wanna wack those pick up phone call the assiastants...haa..after the breifing dunno wat to do so when out wit jian ming and wai meng with thier sec sch friend to get ther CNY and ADD cloths..ha..jian ming so difficult to please..make us walk so many shop..haa jkjk...got one shop quite sugar lor...tt sales personal..wha..if i am the boss i fire him sia..like forcing us to buy something...still question me in a ferice tone "OK WAT IS THE PROBLEM?" u wan me to say ur shirts very ugly meh....lame..finally found a shirt tt is NOT all black!! not dull!!haha..i don wan let him wear so dull, like wat he always wear..hee.. Then the friend of theirs abit ass lor..of all things u say tt to me..nv die be4..u heng tt day i wear skirt..ha..after tt they pei me go take bus..at skate park there i tripped and fell??!!...lol lor..when they pull me up suddenly mu bus come..chiong ar..run..pain lor..and no seats to sit..awww...

thurs which is today..pei boon yesterday night then told me about the class going out and shop together..then i dunno wan go help jian ming they all see or go wit class..cause my leg abit pain..and if i go wit class need to wear nice nice like i promised pei boon..so i hide at home 1st...hee..i asked zihu and khai both also caonnt go..so i stay home watch inuyashatill 6i think then go plaza sing there find wai meng and jianming..jm got a jeans down dere..i saw a boots but no size..hees nvm save $ 1st...haa..i tot to save abit go buy the tusbasa from DGDD they all...they selling at a cheaper price then outside for the JAE..wha..till 14th onli...dunno can save till 60buck anot..hope so..i don really know if should buy leh...Arrgh..hows?...

hmm...tml going to pei zihui for job interview...surveyer...i think will die ar...nvm i try lor..acturally more of pei her..hees cause i don think i got strength to chiong so much le..coming sat got a series of FO things...wha i don think i can stay long down dere got to finish other things..sat also big day for waimeng clem they all...ADD ar...ha ust take nice nice photo back hor..don all too much flash or red eye u know...ha..if need any help on tt day can tell me..haa style hair hair yeah!!erm but i cannot find my straightner...so sorry..hees..wander how all of them will look..jian ming can imagine..wai meng no..cause i don even know wat top...clem no..cause nv see tt tutle neck be4...ws? nv hear him mention about his attire...tp MIA..lesile i guess blazzer?dunno..haa.. juz read finish khai's fanfiction story...sweet moulin rouge twist..COME WAT MAY ppl!!hees...i go watch VDC le..tata

I SIMPLY LOVE WAI MENG

Wai Meng Wai Meng is the best! He is simply the best guy in the world. always there for me... awww he is the sweetest guy on earth! =D

AT last!!

whao whao! twist!..ok quite long nv updated..partly cause i amm busy wit the projects..and i cannot long in to blogger..dunno y..my firefox like got problem..keep time out...hmm..wah actualy got alot of things want to say and type one..but then like dunno wat to say now..hee hee..let me see...after tt sunday..monday when back to school to ask leon about my crowbar idea..ha..wed need to hand in already then now monday still asking idea...wander how to hand in on wed..but well i did finished lar..took photo on tues and edit...all the printing on wed..ha..after meeting leon..then stay in sch cause at night got opening ceremony for school of design and the experience design center...while waiting we watch devil wears parda..ha..then me and khai went to mrt early to wait for the class..lol..mean while we talkied...haiz..[everytime i talk about things i kinda see things more clearly..i think i might still be thinking about the past..which cannot be the present anymore? i dunno lar..ha really dunno about this kinda of stuff..]ok..get back to the day..then our class so guai..reach super early lor..waited like so so long for the thing to start at last..i fall asleep lar..cause tired..then the senior vedio me lar!!!ahhh.......but wat most crucial is the food dere!!hee hee...be4 tt i scare our bag which is left at cadc kana locked..so when back to take..lol..py they all still playing game down dere...



see..ha this is wat i ate...soooooOOoo much sia...hahabelow is wat one of my friend ate..see the diff?ha..and we eat ice kachang too...well tt one is share lar...





then we when to drew my our post card..hees its a combined work..i did the bear bear..lol the tablet abit difficult to use ar...gou zhen drove his car tt day and offered to drive me home wha so nice..ha y not? before tt took the 01's for a few rounds in his truck..wha but drive the car to school for a pourpose de lor...acturally is want to drive sp home, then sp dont want cause she know gz like her..he then ask me one..wha liao..and say till very nan ting sia...emo liao lar gz..hurt me deep deep..sobs..ha..then he drive wrong somemore...lol...went a big round..and yar...half way he wanted to let me off le..lazy to sent me home...dot dot...ok lor..i know i not sp mah..haha

tuesday is assign chiong day for me..took pic of khai and hui hui..cause cant really find others..and i also took alot of test shots of other things...some i think very nice lor..ha later show u all..ha..wed is where i print all my stuff and chiong the presention and final submission..but guess wat? we chiong like mad for 4pm..in the end cher cannot make it...next moring then date line..Wat the.......lol..hack..since i have put in my effort and chiong witin the time i think it should be good enough lar...i got others to chiong also..so i jus pass up wat i have...when dinner wit waimeng and his friend...pei him till quite late cause he waited for me..while he play game i drew my work..and yeah!finally i drew a succesfully phoniex...hurray!!ha at night reach home start chiong liao...drew it all in illustrator..as in the whole picture..did alittle of line seperaton so wont be tt confused..prepare to print everythings and really chiong on thrsday...wai meng promised to help...lol..thurs morning want to print the things quite ealy one..but was pulled and dragged back till 3plus then print finish and start doing...louckly i have ppl who helped me...i love u guys sooOo much..!because of u all i can finish my work...i shall thanks u all here...thanks to...waimeng jianming their friend..layan augustina..calvin and his gf..i dunno how to spell her name..and thanks to jelena...thanks u all for helping me cut the paper..and doing many others...after tt i chiong home to put the things together..and start piling the report..well its kinda little lar..finially read the brief haha..and learnt tt i must protect the 3d...so must make frame...friday need to summit by 4..so mornign i reach at 830..they were late...nvm i don blame them...they are not obliagted to help me mah..i did my report while waiting..and we started the frame..ha the biggest problem is the plastic cover..ha and i cut wrong..cause i hear the mesurement as 39 by 26 but is 29 by 36..lol...but last min le so no choice juz use lor...i feel so happie and hourned tt alot of ppl is helping me in my project...hees...deyi help me find spot light..he and tt EEE guy..forgot his name le..help me think of how to place my instructions..ha..

My final assignment for drawing studio....




ha after tt celebrated abit with waimeng lay yan and the friend..seriously i only know his name only on friday after 4days of seeing him!!haha..weifeng i think..ha..we ate pizza in sch then each have to go off le..to work to home.. so i when home lor...and i think i slacked the rest of the day...hees...today also...wanted to start doing my assign for monday..then i watch tv whole day till 4plus then go out...when out wit clem wz and ws..acturaly their online friend was coming..but maybe not..haha..saw vannessa when we took bus dere..stoopid laogong still so bad...play prank on me wit wz and clem...sobs..haha and wz tot she was a guy..ha yar she very man..tts y call lao gong mah..judo cham in sch sia..don play play...and now dragon boat..ha..when to take 2free movie ticket..and i was super blur the rest of the day..head pain..maybe tired..and i really don wanna think much talk much..but alot of things are constanlly in my brain..pain..ha and sorry lar..i really dunno how to tell u guys i nv say fully..cause i think i also dunno wat i think yet...but tts how i feel now. When gaming with them..well of cause i didnt play lar..they did..haha i so blur now..how to play..
[see how focused they ar...lol..ha abit funnie...]

after the assi and i sleep enough then we play again k? ha..when for small supper and then go home..ha i think ws reach home later might emo again...ha go down find ur parents lar..ha..home alon ok de lar...hees...well..later watch some more xiao yu er..then tml reallly must do DET le..ha..tired..but i still want to watch...haha smack tt 60th aud inside tt love to watch tv...ha..

ok...PHOTOS time...haha...

photos of Uniform DAY in our class..

only me and steff lasted all the day wit school uniform..



our 'famliy' gathering neoprints!!calvin so pretty..hees...his new haircut..


lesile...ermm wat is he doing? attemping to throw and catch the hat wit his head...


me abit inseany...hees...attemp to muder hui hui wit the file?ha..